read this.

2009-03-13T18:35:00.002+08:00

[HIGH CLASS]
[] You go tanning.
[] You own something from coach
[] You own something from juicy couture
[] You own something from louis vuitton
[x] You own an iPod/MP3.
[x] You have been called a brat.
[x] You own more than 7 pairs of shoes
[x] You hate buying things that are on sale
Total: 4

[GOTH]
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[] You wear chains.
[x] You like heavy metal.
[] You've bought something at Hot Topic.
[x] You have worn black lipstick.
[x] Your hair was/is dark.
[x] You dislike preps.
[] You have piercings
Total: 5

[PUNK]
[] You can skateboard. (I WISH!)
[] You wear plaid.
[x] You have/had Converse.
[x] You hate MTV.
[] You have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair.
[x] You love skater boys/girls.
[x] You dislike pink.
[] You wear skinny jeans.
Total: 4

[EMO]
[x] You are depressed sometimes
[x] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[] You like the band Thursday
[x] You cry easily
[x] You don't like being called emo.
[x] You keep a journal/diary.
[x] You have written a sad poem
[x] You have thought about death.
Total: 7

[GHETTO/GANGSTA]
[x] You like rap
[] You are in a gang
[] You wear rubberbands in your pants
[] You have worn a grill.
[] You have had a freestyling contest.
[] You have worn Converse with the tongue flipped out.
[x] You hate preps.
Total: 2

[STRAIGHTEDGE]
[x] You like loud music
[] You never walk anywhere.
[x] You wear slip-on shoes/flats
[] You love Norma Jean.
[] You wear band t-shirts.
[] You love going to "hardcore" shows
[] Your hair has been dyed more than one color.
[x] Wear blue jeans.
Total: 3

[PREP]
[] You have a tiny/medium sized dog
[]Your usual outfits consist of pink.
[]You shop at AE, HOLLISTER, A&F.ETC.
[x] You love to shop.
[] You love jeans.
[] You like Paris Hilton
[] Getting your nails done is a fun thing
[] You wear big sunglasses.
Total: 1

[Athletic]
[x] You own track shoes or cleats other sports related shoes.
[] You collect jerseys .
[x] You have/had a special shelf for trophies and awards.
[]You have/had posters or plaques of famous athletes.
[] your garage consists of sports equipment
[] You belong/belonged to a school team. (well, I was going to be in one but I left the school before they could put me in)
[] You are going/did go to a sports summer program.
[] You have a specific number preferred for your jersey
Total: 2

[Scene]
[] You wear little tiny bows in your hair
[x] You like mardi gras beads, pearls and plastic beads
[x] You have at least 3 shirts with tiny designs all through the shirt
[] You part your hair to the side
[x] You think polka dots are cute.
[] You have shopped at Charlotte Russe
[x] You have done a peace sign while you pose for a picture
[]You've been called scene before
Total: 4

[REDNECK]
[] Gone four wheeling
[] Went hunting
[] Love to go fishing
[x] Eat turkey
[] Ever said GET-ER-DONE
[] You have drove a four-wheeler in to a tree.
[x] Gone to the mud
[] Have listened to the song I'm A Redneck Woman
total: 2

largest total: Emo

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1.Spell your name without an E,R,S,H,K,I,M,L,C,A,Y,N:
Jo

2.Are you single?
Kinda.

3.What is your favorite number?
4

4.What is your favorite color?
BLACK!

5.Least favorite color?
Pink

6.What are you listening to?
The Show Lenka

7.Are you happy with your life right now?
Notatall

8.Are you involved with anyone?
notreally.

9.What is your favorite subject in school/college?
LIT YAW!

10.Do you shop at Abercrombie?
NA.

11.Do you have money?
Well yeah

12.Would you ever take an ex back?
Nah

14.Are you gay?
...totally.

15.Where do you wish you were right now?
zouk.

16.What should you be doing right now
Eating jelly

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THE CANS:
Can you blow a bubble? Well, yes.
Can you do a cart wheel? Never.
Can you touch your toes? Yeah.
Can you wiggle your ears? Yeah
Can you touch your tongue to your nose? No. Who the heck can do that, anyway?

THE DIDS:
Did you ever want to be a doctor? No
Did you ever want to be a fire fighter? No.
Did you ever want to be a teacher? Not really...
Did you ever want to be a lawyer? No way man. Who the heck wants to be a lawyer? I mean, seriously.

THE DOs:
Do you like rollercoasters? YESSSS!
Do you own a bike? Yess.
Do you play the lotto? yuck
Do you like football? No.
Do you have a shopping addiction? No.

THE DOES:
Does your family have family picnics? noop:D
Does you wallet have any pics in it? No
Does a soft answer turn away wrath? Yes

THE LASTS:
Last person you hung out with? Botty
Last car ride? 2 hours ago
Last text message? ..
Last baby you held? casey

LAST THING?
What was the last thing you bought? coke.
What was the last thing you had to drink? coke
What was the last thing you watched? Sophie Scholl
What was the last thing you read? Jodi Picoult Mercy
What was the last thing your hand wrote? Rot.

THE WHOS:
Who last talked to you on the phone? Kimberly
Who was the last person you took a picture with? taraa!
Last person to leave you a comment? me
Who do you miss right now?
Who last hugged you? Um. I don't remember.
Who last IM'd you? mag

CURRENTLY:
What color shirt are you wearing? sota tee
Have any tattoos? No.
Have you any piercings? No.
Straight hair or curly? Straight.
Where are you? At my computer.

HAVE YOU EVER:
Failed a class? math.
Been dumped? Nope.
Accomplished a life goal? Maybe. I don't know.
Thought you were pregnant? yah
Sang in front of a crowd? yah

SIX THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1) botty
2) impact
3) guitar
4) camera
5) cds
6) black stuff

THREE RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. In a relationship? no
2. Want a relationship? yeah.
3. Wanna get married? yah

FOUR THINGS ON YOUR MIND:
1) upload photos on facebook
2) find a website to publish my work
3) do math
4) fix cubeecraft

big event

2009-02-14T15:21:00.003+08:00

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2009-02-12T21:38:00.001+08:00

Please, don't tell me what I can do and what I am not allowed to.
I know my limits and what I want in life.
Please, just leave me alone, for once.
And just shut up. Please

Singaporeans? No way, count me out.

2009-02-10T19:55:00.002+08:00

I am here to write after a super duper uber really, really long time. And this happens to be a complain-ad-let-it-all-out post. How amusingly predictable.

I dislocated my right ankle yet again. third time since last year, hurrah to the bruce-lee-in-training me. Anyhoo, I was on crutches. My armpits hurt. As usual the bus was PACKED. As in packed. So when i hobbled up the bus, everyone just seemed like they needed to pee desporately, staring at me as if their eyes were about to pop from controlling the pee. after five minutes or so, this frail weak OLD MAN noticed that I was an independent handicap and let his seat to me. HOW NICE.

When I got off the bus, two caucasians immediately took my bag and sheltered me home, a ten-minutes walk (it was raining). Did I mention that they were lawyers? Holy cow. A singaporean lawyer would have stuck his or her nose up hiiigh and might not have even noticed me.

This is why I seriously think that singaporeans are selfish. Majority.

Oh oh oh did I mention that this happens in school too? No matter how wonderful sota sounds, when someone faints, there will be some people who are bound to run over just to fight for oxygen. And to take a look at what is happening, so she can vividly describe the incident to her little group of friends.

sorry

2009-01-29T19:11:00.001+08:00

im gonna post soon i swear,.

Psychology, Digression and Complete Udder

2009-01-15T19:38:00.002+08:00

It hurts to know that you're being psyched by a certain someone into doing things that you don't want to. You've been used and don't realize it till now which is too late. As they always say, only the closest people to you can hurt you real bad. Like that certain someone who "accidentally" claimed the glory for something that she didn't do. But you can't seem to let the person go - as a friend, as an enemy. Sometimes you can't exactly blame Bob for bailing on you. Bob doesnt know what he's doing, or that is what I'd like to think. Then when your life is in shambles because of Bob, Jane comes along and starts asking you, "Are you okay, dear?" repeatedly when very obviously, you're not.

I mean, can't Jane take a hint and just get lost? Stupidity, my worse enemy. this queasy feeling in you that causes you to be at a loss, just sitting quietly and, as they always say, stone.

What bout all the criminals and suicide bombers? Sometimes i look at the papers and ask myself, gosh, were they psyched into doing this or was it out of earthly greed? Cmon, give them a second chane and just quit killing them. Whats with the theory of an eye for an eye, a life for a life? Live and let live.

Now to the society part.

To me, society, in general, is plain stupid. They are ignorant about numerous things and yet all they do is criticise. they feel that ir is a do-or-die need to make a nasty remark even about things that don;t need or deserve it. It is funny the way i view things, from the perspective of an arty farty student in asia, because the society desporately needs to change RIGHT NOW. It needs to be more opened and accepting like the three horrible musketeers. Take for example the paralympics. I find it a complete ridicule that it only starts after the closing ceremony of the Olympics and is not even aired on national television.

Is it because 'we' think the handicapped or disabled community doing sports is not worth our time watching?

Or is it just because the society excludes the fact that there are even disabled people living amongst us and that the paralympics is just for the minority community to entertain themselves for a little while?

Truth is, I have no idea.

Admit it, you don't too.

And then there's the major part of society that stereotypes a hell lot. For me, the same thing applies over and over again.

SOTA=arty farty
arty farty='gay' and for people who don't do well in studies
Thereore
SOTA students=gay and dumb.

Trust me, its that bad. I've seen it many times and experienced the humiliation of having to explain that sota isnt a gay community and how we also focus on academics.

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2009-01-06T18:35:00.001+08:00

From today onwards there is something called a journal. Of course, what crap am I blabbing. This presumably proves that sota is tiring me out? An ARC journal with contents likely to be what is on this blog. Saves me time and cuts me slack. No wonder I have such free time to be typing Shiz here and facebooking.

As You Like It, Act 5, Epilogue

2008-12-29T17:22:00.002+08:00

ROSALIND.
It is not the fashion to see the lady the epilogue; but
it is no more unhandsome than to see the lord the prologue.
If it be true that good wine needs no bush, 'tis true that a good
play needs no epilogue. Yet to good wine they do use good bushes;
and good plays prove the better by the help of good epilogues.
What a case am I in, then, that am neither a good epilogue nor
cannot insinuate with you in the behalf of a good play! I am not
furnished like a beggar; therefore to beg will not become me: my
way is to conjure you; and I'll begin with the women. I charge
you, O women, for the love you bear to men, to like as much of
this play as please you: and I charge you, O men, for the love
you bear to women;--as I perceive by your simpering, none of you
hates them,--that between you and the women the play may please.
If I were a woman, I would kiss as many of you as had beards that
pleased me, complexions that liked me, and breaths that I defied
not; and, I am sure, as many as have good beards, or good faces,
or sweet breaths, will, for my kind offer, when I make curtsy,
bid me farewell.

[Exeunt.]

-Shakespeare, As You Like It, Act 5, Epilogue

image conscienceness

2008-12-24T00:19:00.002+08:00

this post is a disagreement against F's latest post, so before you continue reading this, please click HERE to read her post or you'll be lost in the next few paragraphs.

Firstly, why should someone even worry about what he or she wears, as long as the clothes aren't comfortable, for me in my case here is of course, a white lacy dress complete with frocks and itchy bugs that seem to be there all the time. If someone actually judges you in 3 seconds of your first meeting and shows prejudice against you for how you look, there is only one single solution here that will surely, surely work if you do it the right way.

Irritate.
I-R-R-I-T-A-T-E.

Yes, and that is what I am about to do to you if you judge me at this point.

Painting yourself with fingerpaint(or in this case, acrylic) does not make you crazy or stupid. If that really did apply, then almost the whole of SOTA visual arts faculty would be siao and stupid by March and I don't think that Jonathan is exactly what you'd call stupid. Or siao.

Yes yes it is indeed impossible to be perfect butbutbut we can ignore and give hell to the 1D people, who, I can gurantee, only less than 4% of the SOTA population is 1D because we are all artists and artists are... ...unique, so there is no need to worry unless you're talking about your neighbours or friends out of school.

Someone who judges you in 3 seconds does not deserve to have any friends and therefor i shall conclude(while practicing for ARC test) that you don't really need to care.

at all.

2008-12-22T13:10:00.002+08:00

Sheezlebumps. 2009 is a few days away and I am wasting my life away. I still cannot accept the fact that 2008 is actually over. Well, almost. So these are some of the changes from 2008 over to 2009.

Year two
New year ones
Small locker
Art and History paper
Change of teachers
Change of art subjects
Change of friends, new and old
New problems to deal with
More books
More money used
1 year closer to 2009

Yeah and there are still about a million and two that i have yet to mentioned. So i think i should do some kind of 2009 resolution thing yes? Here goes nothing.

Not to get into any form of trouble with any adult in school. *ahemcoughmrtahemahem*
To actually pass IHSS
Improve my music library and range of songs and genres
Not to do anything that hurts myself
STOP LIKING NORAH JONES!!!!! Cos she's a super beetch.

Number one may be able to fulfill, but there is still a 50% chance that this someone reports on me and I get into trouble. Number two is possible if i try to study for at least 20 minutes before the exam, not five minutes. Number three is, of course, possible. Number four is impossible with that someone hanging around me most of the time and Number five I am not so sure about because I feel that unless I get disgusted by Norah Jones (e.g. she suddenly turns from jazz vocals into metal, not that I have anything against metal), I wont stop liking her.

2008-12-15T13:14:00.002+08:00

What will we be 5 years down the road? You might be thinking now that I've asked this question, this girl here is so fickle minded, one moment she says she does not give too hoots about the future and now she's thinking.
Siao.

Actually, I still don't. My question here is questioning our emotions in 5 years time, not our jobs, grades and other coveted things. I looked at the calender and realised that a year has passed just like that, and there are still many things I have yet to complete, like the piece of painting, that exercise book, or it could also be that I have not yet patched up a broken friendship.

Notice the numerous 'I's and realise how selfish I am.

All I know now is that I'm going to have to hate 2013.

Grad year, where everyone of us will go seperate ways, different schools, different teachers, different friends, different environment, different feel, different subjects. It takes only one word to sum up those 1002 'differents'. And that would be change.

Yes, change.

The only one word that makes me tear at the thought of it. Change, a powerful thing that is ongoing and the only thing besides God that never changes and I very so happen to hate it.

i hate it

i am going to find Change and kill right now, so bye.

2008-12-09T12:20:00.003+08:00

ANOREXIA :
[] you have dry skin
[] you eat 1 meal.
[] you're very weak.
[x] you hate yourself.
[] you starve yourself.
[x] you have low self esteem.
[] you use laxatives.
[x] you need to be more skinny.
[] people always say you're skinny, but you think you're fat
[] people think you are too skinny.
Total: 4

ADHD (ATTENTION DEFICIT/HYPERACTIVITY DISORDER) :
[x] your mind is all over the place.
[x] you are hyper most of the time.
[x] you barely pay attention to anything.
[] you can't cooperate well
[x] you talk all the time.
[] you need attention 24/7.
Total: 8

BIPOLAR DISORDER :
[x] you can act wild at times then the next day you are depressed
[] you are very irritable.
[x] you are anti-social.
[x] you have very high self esteem sometimes.
[] you are abusing alcohol, drugs, or sex.
[] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
Total: 11

BULIMIA NERVOSA :
[] you throw up all of your food.
[] you throw it up even when you don't feel sick.
[] you have no control over how you eat.
[] you use laxatives.
[] you have overly exercised to where you almost fainted/passed out.
[] you always say you are fat, when you aren't.
[] people think you're way too skinny.
Total: 11

CONDUCT DISORDER :
[] you are a bully.
[x] you threaten other people.
[] you often find yourself in fights.
[x] you have used a weapon that could cause injury to others.
[] you are cruel to humans and/or animals.
[] you have raped/molested someone.
[x] you destroy property on purpose.
[x] you always lie
[] you stay out all night
[] you have ran away from home.
Total: 15

DEPRESSION :
[] you are always sad.
[x] you find no hope in your future.
[x] you find no longer excitement over the activities you use to love.
[] you always find yourself in bed/around the house all day.
[] you have low self esteem.
[x] everything bad that happens is always your fault.
[] you always seem to be weak or have physical features hurt.
[] you are failing school.
[x] you have thought of/attempted suicide.
[] you have ran away from home.
[x] hope is no longer there for you.
Total: 20

OCD (OBSESSIVE COMPULSIVE DISORDER) :
[x] you have daily rituals.
[x] you have disturbing thoughts or thoughts you hate.
[x] you have to do a certain thing until it feels right.
[x] you have to keep things in a certain order.
[x] you have harmed yourself.
[x] you are afraid you will get a std, aids, or any kind of germs.
[x] you have to check some stuff over again.
Total: 27

PTSD (POST-TRAUMATIC STRESS DISORDER) :
[x] you repeatedly have flashbacks of horrible moments/memories in your life
[x] you repeatedly have dreams of horrible moments/memories in your life.
[x] you sometimes think the event will happen again.
[x] you can be/are anti-social.
[x] you have lost interest in the things you used to love.
[x] you have not had a lot of sleep lately.
[x] you worry about dying at a early age or dying at all.
[x] you can have angry outbursts.
[x] You act younger than your age
Total: 36

SCHIZOPHRENIA :
[] you often have hallucinations.
[x] you have strange, unusual dreams or thoughts.
[x] you can be confused about reality and fantasy.
[x] you think people are always staring or talking about you
[x] you have extreme anxiety or fearfulness.
[x] you have difficulty with relationships with family, friends, and opposite sex.
[] you do not take care of your hygiene like you should.
[x] you are very shy.
[x] you often talk to yourself
Total: 43

2008-12-06T12:13:00.002+08:00

I watched a kiddo reality show called little entrepreneurs awhile ago. From this I could really see how Singapore's stressful study-or-die system has gotten into them, even at this young age of 11.

When asked what they wanted to be, three of the five said doctor, one said a lawyer and another an actress. I was wondering, people, please have a little more sense, why would you ever ever ever want to be a doctor when you are only in primary five and need to study for 201 years, when you are done with your doctor course you have to cut up people.

Totally cool

not.

I think that we should not put the blame on the children on being money minded or fame seeking. They are still young and do not realize that it is not as easy as said to be an actress, doctor or a lawyer. Being an actress is a dream and in Singapore, the rule here is no dreams allowed.

Being a doctor or a lawyer is an ambition for most kids who have been psyched by their parents or the society to be. Since young, even my parents have been going, when you grow up, must become doctor or lawyer can make money. I used to go oh, okay and thought, oh shit, my future is going to be full of blood and white wigs.

Contradictorily, some children who have enough sense want to be a doctor not because they are seeking money but only because they want to save people and do not mind putting themselves under 201 years of studying and blood. That is something that I truly admire - Self sacrifice.

I feel that Singapore's education system should take a turn for the better. Allow the students to have their own creative field, not study study study or die. Like us in sota, someone ever mentioned to a teacher that she wanted to be an artiste so that she can become someone famous and live in a big house. In other schools, the teachers would probably go, oh good, you have a life goal. however, instead of being praised, she got reprimanded. Being an artiste is not about fame and fortune, but instead, about doing what you love and bringing happiness to people.

Singapore sucks.

Truly.

However all I am typing now makes no change, as the people who think alike me are only the minority, maybe not ever 1% of the world.

As I always say, great minds think alike.

This is chaos.

2008-12-06T00:20:00.002+08:00

hey, i'll be in malaysia from later 12 noon to monday i think. will be going online soon enough. okay, i actually have a good topic to blog about but its so so late now and my fingers are peeling from the guitar so they hurt tones. i'll blog in malaysia.

bye bye!

2008-12-05T17:26:00.002+08:00

01. Do you wear a watch to school?
nope

02. Starting with the LAST letter of your name, think of a name that you could possibly change your name to and write it here.
Nana?

03. Do you need to cut your nails right now?
nope

04. Have you ever got addicted to a computer game?
nope.

05. There's got to be a fan in the room you're in now. What's it's colour?
black <333333333

06. Who last text-messaged you?
gloria

07. Who do you wish last text-messaged you?
viraj? i have not been talking to her for a long time.

08. Who last tagged your blog?
christie :D

09. Who do you WISH last tagged your blog?
fayth

10. Do you like doing Maths?
yeah. sorta,

11. What is the colour of the bag that you wear to school?
it was red, but im getting a black one cos i own black!

12. What is the 10th latest text-message you received?
gloria

13. What is the colour of the door nearest to you?
chocolate

14. What do you wish you had in your hands right now?
chocolate

15. Have you stuck anything on your cell phone?
yeah. stickers, of course -.-

16. Do you like hotel rooms?
uhh, depends. im pretty okay with the deluxe suites, but other than that NO.

17. Do you like to swim?
yeah, you could say so.

18. What's the craziest thing you've ever done with tissue paper?
nothing?

19. Do you have a sock tan?
nope.

20. Do you wish you were taller?
nope.

21. Do you love your best friends?
course i do.

22. Have you ever sent a letter by post to someone not in the same country as you?
yeah.

23. Have you ever send a letter by post to someone in the same country as you?
no no no.

24. Do you think you need to sleep earlier?
nope.

25. Who was last in your bed?
me!

Starting time: 1736
Name: joan
Shoe size: 1002.
Height:163

Where d'ya live?
Earth.

Favourite drinks:
espirit lemon lime

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Have you ever --
1; Been overseas?
course. europe, scandinavia, australia, germany, england, scotland, japan, malaysia :(, china, new zealand and thailand

2; Fallen asleep in school?
countless.

3; Broken someone's heart?
think so.

4; Fell off your chair?
yeah. too much laughing.

5; Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call?
yeah

6; Saved e-mails?
three from this claim-to-be psychic called sara freder who was trying to sell me some magnetised earing with my photo there to suck out my inner fortune and luck.

7; Had chicken pox?
nope

8; Had a sore throat?
yeah.

9; Had a broken nose?
nope.

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The last thing you ate?
Ice Cream

What's your room like?
some super cool place where romit is invisible

Do you believe in love at first sight?
Of course!

Like picnics?
nope.

Who was the last person you danced with?
no idea?

Last person who made you smile?
tara. or was it fayth?

You last yelled at?
my mom

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Today did you --

1; Talk to someone you like?
i talked to fayth and i dont exactly hate her -.-

2; Kiss anyone?
not yet.

3; Fall ill?
nope.

4; Talk to an ex?
nope.

5; Miss someone?
yeah, many many people.

6; Eat?
yeah, stupid question.

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Best feeling in the world:
neutral

Do you sleep with stuffed toys?
yeah,

What's under your bed?
nothing?

Who do you really hate?
no one, really.

What time is it now?
1744

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Random --

1; Is there anybody on your mind right now?
yeah.

2; Do you have any siblings?
nope.

3; Do you want children?
nope. they are horrible and irritating.

4; Do you eat often?
think so.

5; Do you like your handwriting?
yeah.

6; Are your toenails painted?
nope.

7; Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in?
nope.

8; What colour shirt are you wearing now?
red.

9; What were you doing at seven pm yesterday?
guitar.

10; I can't wait till:
19 december and januray 2nd

11; Are you a friendly person?
nope. im evil, mean and like to pull hairs.

12; Do you have any pets?
nope.

13; Where is the person you have feelings for right now?
overseas.

14; Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you?
yeah, friend.

15; Do you sleep with the TV on?
nope.

16; Have you ever crawled through a window?
yeah.

17; Are you too forgiving?
yeah.

18; Are your closer to your mother or father?
...

19; Who was the last person you cried in front of?
s and f.

20; How many people can you say you really love?
1002.

21; Do you eat healthy?
nope.

22; If you're having a bad day, who will you most likely go to?
s or f or v.

23; Are you loud or quiet most of the time?
louD

24; Are you confident?
yeah.

25; 5 things you were doing 10 years ago:
reciting the pi till the 89th number
cooking first class chocolate fondue
reading the complete works of shakespeare
attempting to split the atom of a molecule
taking my diploma exam for piano.

yeah, totally.

26; 5 things on my to-do list today:
download quantum of solace
go for guitar lesson
practice schubert g flat impromtu
get a new webcam
pack for trip.

27; 5 things I would do if I were a billionaire:
nothing...

28; 5 of my bad habits:
smart,
very smart,
very very smart,
very very very smart,
very very very very smart.

29; 5 places I lived in?
castle green, yio chu kang road
some wierd hdb somewhere in yishun
ang mo kio block 540 ave 3 i think
the windsor
the house next to my current house

30; 5 jobs I've had:
teach piano to a kiddo . . . . .
. . .
.
.

2008-12-03T17:22:00.002+08:00

I used to hate Literature. To me, it was boring, useless and senseless - how in the world does it help that you are taking 7 subjects, and then there is this subject telling you about images, colours and hidden agendas etc?

But recently, I realised that Literature actually helps you to be a better person and fare better in life. I know verry well that I am currently sounding like your Literature teacher who talks in that oh-so-dramatic voice, but hey, i am not her(or him), so just read on.

Firstly, have you ever ever experienced an unreasonable scolding from your parents and somehow you rebutted and this scolding that started out as irritating became a bitch fight and ended up hurting? I'm sure you did, or at least, everyone I know of has experienced this. next time this happens to you, don't rebut. Listen and take in the words he or she says, or even possible, write it down. Then analyze and find out if you really deserve the scolding or if your parents are just being plain unreasonable, which in my case, always applies. If they are, what is the reason?
Menopause(sadly, yes)?
Bad day at work?
They just had an arguement?
the financial crisis?

Just understand them and let them yadda yadda on. If possible, use ear muffs(click on this link to get some - they range from S$25 TO S$60). They really work, no matter how ridiculous it sounds. Like me, I listen to my mom's unreasonable scolding sometimes(i reckon its the bananas) and I start laughing at how she does it like McCain - repeated "scolding points" over and over again.

Next, if you are bored, you can sit at some crowded bus stop or park and just look and observe the people walking past. From the way they dress, talk, walk or even look can tell you a lot about that person. It's quite fun, actually. So next time if you are in a lecture hall and bored of that tall lecturer speaking in a monotone voice, just pick someone and stare and hope that the person will not turn back because I have nothing here that tells me how to get out of embarrassment from getting caught red handed staring.

Lastly, friends. Yes, the one word that makes your life complete. F-R-I-E-N-D-S. What about them now? Well, sometimes you get into arguments with them over trivial matters.

For example,
Bob(again) is broke.
You buy bob a meal.
Bob tells you he will pay you another day
You say, 'it doesn't matter'.
He is angry and starts arguing with you.

This sounds ridiculous, I know, but it does happen. Could it be that bob does not want you to look down on him, pity him and get free meals? Yes, this is very much possible. So this issue of buying him a meal that does not really matter to you matters a ton to him. So, to settle this, just go, "Oh i am so so sorry. I did not know that this mattered to you so much. You can pay me another day, anytime you want," and the matter will be settled.

goodbye.

2008-11-30T14:54:00.003+08:00

Template:Dear (the last person who text messaged you):I don't really know how to tell you this, but (1). I think I realized it (2) (3) and I saw you (4) (5). I'm sure you're (6) enough to understand (7). I'm returning (8) to you, but I'll keep (9) as a memory. You should also know that I (10) (11).(12),-Your name-
1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match Grey - You're a pervert Yellow - I'm selling myself Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kbob - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man O.C. -EmotionalOne
Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8 .What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain

Dear vera I don't really know how to tell you this, but i dislike you. I think I realized it when your dog ran amok outside the bus and I saw you sit on my best friend. I'm sure you're scarred enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning the couch cushions, but I'll keep the results of your blood-sample as a memory. You should also know that I am better off without to hate the Boston Celtics. With ease, joan

.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.,.

[ ] made out with someone before dating.
[x] gotten a phone takeaway in class.
[ ] gotten suspended.
[x] gotten caught chewing gum.
[ ] gotten caught cheating on a test.
[x] arrived late for class more than 5 times.
[x] didn't do homework over 5 times.
[x] turned at least 3 projects late.
[x] missed school because you just felt like it.
[x] laughed so loud that you go kicked out of the class. (LOL)
[x] got your mum, dad, etc to get you out of school.
[x] text people during class.
[x] passed notes.
[x] threw stuffs across the rooms.
[x] laughed at the teacher.
[x] took pictures during school hours.
[x] called someone during school hours.
[x] listened to ipod, CD, etc during school hours.
[x] threw something at the teacher.
[x] went outside the classroom without permission.
[x] broke the dress code.
[ ] failed to go to class for lesson.
[x] ate food during class.
[x] gotten a call from school.
[ ] couldn't go on a field trip cause you behaved badly.
[x] given the teacher the finger when they weren't looking.
[x] swore during class/school.
[x] forged your parents signature.
[x] slept in class.
[x] cursed at your teacher.
[x] copied homework.
[ ] got in trouble with the principal/ vice principal.

Overall :26
Multiply by 3*
Post as __ % school gangster.

78% school gangster. wth lawlz.

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(1) The first contact in your HP?
007. dont ask.

(2) The sweetest person in your life?
........

(3) The closest male to you?
........

(4) The person you are chatting with now.
jolly, fally, grace.

(5) The languages you speak?
english, chinese, khek.

(6) The last person whom you screwed?
o.o?

(7) One word about your life now?
sian

(8) Where do you wish to study?
school of chickens

(9) What are you specially good at?
nothing

(10) Would you date someone younger than you?
maybeh

(11) What are you to yourself?
bbb

(12) Do you forgive people easily?
yes

(13) Which girl is precious to you now?
the.bunny | the.rabbit | the.dramma.mama

(14) Your dressing style?
sian

(15) How different are you from other girls?
i love norah jones!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(16) The bad point about yourself?
i have a balding finger

(17) The last contact in your hp?
王昭君

(18) Your hp wallpaper?
the bunny that fayth gave me

(19) Screen saver?
girl on a swing

(20) Your favourite song?
mas que nada

(21) The two hated contacts in your hp?
fat ass and the liar

(22) Learnt on language in 10 days?
nope

(23) One gorgeous girl you came across?
ROMIT!!!!!!!!!!!!

(24) Whose your biggest enemy?
you.

(25) Which gang do your support?
i me and myself federation

(26) What do you think about gangsters?
okay lah.

(27) Proper age to join a gang?
dunno

(28) Do you have a blog?
==

(29) What do you think about modelling?
so so lah.

(30) Whose approval do you usually seek first?
i dont.

2008-11-28T18:21:00.002+08:00

put yourself in the shoes of a girl who suffers from anorexia nervosa, this is what you get -

"I want to be a skeleton - but i also want to be attractive. I want to die - but i also want to live." (says leslie)

-Deborah Hautzig
Second Star To The Right

2008-11-27T19:40:00.002+08:00

An excerpt from the book tangerine by Colin Cheong, Singapore literature prize winner:

"People have dreams. And in singapore, it's hard to make dreams like that happen on your own. So you want somebody who shares those dreams with you and who can help take you there."

"But why dream just about nice cars and big houses?" Denise asked. "I mean, it isn't all that hard in canada, but it's no big deal.

"I dunno," said Nick. "maybe it's because in Singapore, there's little else to dream about. we've had a government for the last 20-odd years has just harped on one thing - economic progress - and really, everything else we do just feeds this one thing. so we're awfully focused as a country, but it means we have just one dream. Getting richer. It's the only thing that's clearly allowed. The signal's out and clear. Don't mess in politics, unless the ruling party invites you to join them, if you want to be an artist, go ahead, but don't upset anybody, especially the ruling party. If you want to dream about heaven, go ahead, just don't try getting everyone else to believe in your heaven. And yes, if you haven't accumulated enough wealth and the shit hits the fan for you in anything, you're on your own because you had a fair shot at it, like anyone else. In warped sense, it's really a very free country, but you're expected to play only one game. It's really a kind of totalitarian capitalism. One game. Everybody gets a shot at it. There are strict rules to ensure that everybody plays fair. It's the best game there is, everyone plays it and if you don't want to then you have to accept that some player you fancy is going to find it hard to team up with you.'

i totally agree with this. Singapore does not allow us to have dreams. This place is all about earthly needs and money, money, money. and money.

so here's a trailer, Singapore dreaming. i think you can get it at gramaphone, or watch it ad old school sinema (sinema.sg)

watch it and ask yourself, are you really happy with your goal of being rich or do you want more... in life.

2008-11-26T21:03:00.004+08:00

This post will require you to ask yourselves a couple of questions and think about it, so if you are ever ever brain dead, don't bother reading on. I am also going to write my post, obama style: firstly, secondly, thirdly lastly.

today.
Someone commented on my liking of Jodi Picoult books. Someone said that they were mature and unsuitable for me. So today here i am to kick the arse of old fashioned thoughts(since Sarah is slamming death penalties).

Firstly, mature themes are suitable for anyone so long as their minds are mature enough, not just judging by the age and I think that at age thirteen, I should be able to absorb the novels that are written, and that i am mature enough to read mere black text on 100% recycled paper.

Next, tell me, which good young adult novel does not include the description of physical contact between man and woman? Maybe you could name a handful, but I can assure you, majority of them do contain such text.

Thirdly, it is not the part about sex that we read for, it is the storyline, the language and the perspective of writing that we read for, don't you agree? Furthermore, her books give me something to think about after I read them. besides, don't we all know that these things(melodramatic events that storybook characters do out of impulse) do not happen in reality?

Lastly, sex is something that God has graciously given us, a gift from him. Depriving us to learn about it is not a very smart thing to do. You could say that 'now is not the time'. If not now, when?

Here is the list of Jodi Picoult books, with clickies linking to wiki. click for the summary.

Songs of the Humpback Whale (1992)
Harvesting the Heart (1994)
Picture Perfect (1995)
Mercy (1995)
The Pact (1998)
Keeping Faith (1999)
Plain Truth (2000)
Salem Falls (2001)
Perfect Match (2002)
Second Glance (2003)
My Sister's Keeper (2004)
Vanishing Acts (2005)
The Tenth Circle (2006)
Nineteen Minutes (2007)
Wonder Woman (vol. 3)
Wonder Woman: Love and Murder (2007)
Change of Heart (2008)
Handle With Care (2009)
Untitled Seventeenth Novel (2010)

2008-11-24T19:46:00.002+08:00

i need to commend a song sung by Mariah Carey, Beyoncé, Mary J. Blige, Rihanna, Fergie, Sheryl Crow, Melissa Etheridge, Natasha Bedingfield, Miley Cyrus, Leona Lewis, Carrie Underwood, Keyshia Cole, Leann Rimes, Ashanti and Ciara., called just stand up. i suddenly felt an emotion overwhelm me today when i listened to the song just stand up. this song has been helping me through the days when i was in china and was dying(well, not really) of not talking to anyone in singapore and no internet or radio.

here are the lyrics

Everything will be alright, yeah
The heart is stronger than you think
Like it can go through anything
And even when you think it can’t it finds a way to still push on, though

Sometime you want to run away
Ain’t got the patience for the pain
And if you don’t believe it look into your heart, the beat goes on

I’m telling you
Things get better through whatever
If you fall, dust it off, don’t let up
Don’t you know you can go, be your own miracle, you need to know

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what, don’t give up
Through it all, just stand up

It’s like we all have better days
Problems getting all up in your face
Just because you go through it
Don’t mean it gotta take control, no (no)

You ain’t gotta find no hiding place
Because the heart can beat the hate
Don’t wanna let your mind keep playing you
And saying you can’t go on

I’m telling you,
Things get better through whatever
If you fall, dust if off, don’t let up
Don’t you know you can go, be your own miracle, you need to know

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough (ohh)
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up (don't you give up)
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what, don’t give up (don't give up, just stand up)
Through it all, just stand up (just stand up)
Through it all, just stand up

You don’t gotta be a prisoner in your mind
If you fall, dust it off, you can live your life (yeah)
Let your heart be your guide, oh (yeah yeah yeah)
You will know that you’re good if you trust the in good
Everything will be alright, yeah (alright)
Light up the dark, if you follow your heart
And It will get better through whatever

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up (don't give up, don't give up, no no no)
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what, don’t give up
Through it all, just stand up

If the mind keeps thinking you’ve had enough
But the heart keeps telling you don’t give up
Who are we to be questioning, wondering what is what, don’t give up (don't give up, don't give up)
Through it all, just stand up

You got it in you, find it within (everything will be alright, yeah)
You got in ya, find it within ya
You got in you, find it within
You got in you, find it within ya
You got in you, find it within (everything will be alright, yeah)
You got in you, find it within ya
Find it within you, find it within
Through it all, just stand up

i agree with the two lines which i bolded. as long as there is a little glow in there telling you not to give up, dont. things will get better as you move along, and no, you dont need to take control of everything to make sure everything goes perfect and the way you want it to go. god has everything planned for you.

2008-11-16T19:25:00.000+08:00

i have a good topic to write about. firstly, the flight was pretty much okay, considering the fact that i ignored the strong chinglish of the air stewardesses. here, there is no internet and i cannot communicate. holly cow, you guessed right. i totALLY missed sarah and fayth and people.

the thing is, i was thinking about how s and f were getting on with their novels and i was about to send a text to them asking them when i realised i was in CHINA and each text would cost a bomb. i started my miserable thing that lasted till 2 am. i wonder how ramsay will be coping. maybe guys are not so sentimental. i am just on a mission trip with not so good living conditions.

the state of the place here maed me wonder(again) why /how all those money loving megalomaniacs who are well to do happen to poison the world with whatever they add into milk here.

i am now spending a few moments preparing myself for tomorrow, how i can open up myself so as to get and learn the best out of this place. in IDU talk, man and society, man and environment, not being self centredd and caring only for I me and myself as an individual.

2008-11-13T23:33:00.004+08:00

OMG dave khoo just tagged my blog. he even bothered to tag me. go search david khoo on youtube lah! now i can happily go to china knowing that someone notices me. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

goodbye people, my birthday is on 17th nov and im gna be in china NOT ON HOLIDAY BUT 0ON SOME MISSION WORK.

2008-11-12T20:15:00.003+08:00

hello, people. now let me be a little self centered for a moment. please stay and bear with me, kay? firstly, my big day is in five days and on that day, im going to slog my guts out painting and cutting up things in some cheena village. mission work, oh the joy. i was being so miserable going on and on about how bad a situation i was in so f and s decided to bring me out on a little outing to the sky where everything is perfect and made of belgium chocalate. well, not really.

anyway HSM3 was, you can say, the dumbest show i have ever ever watched, right after madagascar. troy looked like he was about to die from over-hyperventilation at the start of the show, looked horrible throughout when he was singing, and looked even horrible-er when he did those funny open-my-arms-oh-gabrielle-come-into-them movements. it was a comedy.

anyway, i got the bear from s that has a soft ear. soft. soft and soft. soft. soft.

now let me make this list thanking all the people i know this year, which, i realised, everyone is doing, so i shall follow suite.

to all R5-ians, in a random order.

alethea, for loving mickey with me!
kathleen, the attack of the booshes!
crystal, uhh.............
andrew, tomato soup or apples for you today? thanks for msn-ing me when im bored!
denise, though i did not really get to know you, you seem nice.
tara, for bringing all the fun and laughter! and johnny depp will always love you, i swear.
jingjie, for being such an idiot.
bettina, hello! hope we get to work together sometime again next year.
kimberly, for being a great great friend
christine, for screaming your head off and allowing me to talk to B.Y
natalie, hope you always stay high and happy!
vera, you goon.
victoria, the oh-so-neat freak that hates dirtiness!
jocelyn, thanks for cursing and scolding a certain someone with me
elizabeth, funny funny wo*ly mammmo*h.
jieying, cute, sweet and cute -.-
rayman, the biter and injury-causer, always acting emo and letting me take emo pics of you
thaddaeus, the spazzing dude who tries to bite the ear and touch the elbow
daniel, for being consistently lame throughout the year
olivia, thanks for helping me with my grade 7!
moira, for screaming and acting all drama and stuff.
1 more person, whos that???

2008-11-10T15:31:00.003+08:00

im bored and addicted to quizzes. so here is a super long one.

-START-
1.What have you been doin recently?
watching movies online
2.Do you ever turn ur cell phone off?
yea sometimes.
3.What happened at 10am today?
no idea
4.When did u last cry?
0130am today
5.Believe in fate/destiny?
yeap.
6.What do you want in ur life nw?
iPod
7.Do you carry a umbrella when it rains or just put up ur hood?
nay.
8.Whats ur fav. thk to have on ur bed?
huggies!
9.What bottoms are you wearin nw?
shorts, duh~
10.Whats th nicest thk in ur inbox?
no idea,
11.Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
maybe. i think so
12.Are you wearin anythk borrowed frm anyone?
not now.
13.What was th last movie u caught?
painted skin
14.What are u proud of?
my great friends
15.What does ur oldest text msg in ur inbox says?
a message from passion.com
16.What was th last song u sang out loud?
the man who cant be moved
17.Do u have any nicknames?
not sure.
18.What does ur last txt msg says?
'it's the longest winter without you. better in time by leona lewis.' from sarah
19.What tym did u go to bed last nite?
2.40am
20.Are you currently happy?
nope not atall
21.Who gives u th best advice?
friends.
22.Do u eat whipped cream straight frm can?
eww
23.Who did you talk on the phone last nite?
fayth
24.Is something bugging you now?
yeap.
25.What/who was the last person to make you laugh?
sarah. pretty long legs.
26.Do you wear toe socks?
yeah
27.Who was the last person you missed a call frm?
me.(i was trying to find my phone)
28.Have you ever had your heart broken?
depends.
29.What annoys you most in a person?
perfectness
30.Do you have a crush on someone?
yeah. is it a crush?
31.Have you ever done cocaine?
nay.
32.What is the colour of yr room?
powder blue as a background, brandeis blue fire flames and ivory clouds at the top.
33.Would you kill someone you hate for a billion bucks?
nay.
34.Do you believe in the saying,’Talk is cheap’?
nay.
35.Who was the last person to lie in yr bed?
ummm
36.Who was the last person to hug you?
fayth!
37.Did you see the last person you kissed recently?
yeah.
38.Do you have a life?
yeap. sure.
39.Have you ever thought someone died,when they didnt?
yeah.
40.What is the reason behind yr profile song?
i dont have one!
41.Who was the last person you saw in yr dreams?
tara, sarah, fayth, viraj, me and andrew having a pool party with romit!
42.Last time you smiled?
today:D
43.Have you changed this year?
Yeahhs.
44.What are you listening to rite now?
whoever finds this i love you
45.Are you talking to someone while doing this?
gloria, msn and vera, phone.
46.Do you walk with your eyes closed or open?
open...
47.Is there a quote you live by?
So what
48.Do you want someone you can never have?
yea. sorry bout that, person.
49.Have you ever played an instrument?
course. recorder, viola(credits to gloria), guitar, piano, guzheng, anglor, erhu, keyboard, trombone
50.What was the worst idea you’ve had this week?
cutting.
51.What were you doin last nite at 11pm?
making out with my guitar
52.Are you happy with your love life rite now?
totally.
53.What song best describes yr love life?
sweet the sting, tori amos
54.Does the person noe you like him/her?
yeap. SURE DOES.
55.Who always makes you laugh?
viraj
56.Do you speak other languages other than english?
yeeaaaaah.
57.Favourite websites?
blogs, facebook, wiki.
58.Whats yr middle name?
my full name is felicia anna copalla dickens donnings drew charlotte barrymore bronte charles etc etc. choose one
60.What do you think you are like?
sad and high
61.Who will you choose to die with?
any volunteers for this??
62.Where have you been today?
J8
63.What game do you play often?
neopets :D
64.Who are you missing now?
sota and everyone there
65.If you had to choose between your fren or your lover which will you choose?
my friend is my lover... right?
66.What are you doing right now?
talking to gloria
67.Which primary school are you from?
Ai Tong :DDD
68.Name 3 colours that you like?
black white orange
69.What emotion do you like to show?
happiness
70What is yr life to you?
WOW.
71.If you have something bothering you what will you do?
think about it ad blog sth related.
72.Who did you last chat on msn today?
romit(still doing it)
73.Who do you admire the most?
zhen ting.(dont ask)
74.Which month were you born in?
November.
75.How are you feeling right now?
bored.
76.What is the time now?
3.52pm
77.What kind of person do you think of the one who tagged you?
Yuri, stupid
the person u think u hate, misunderstood
fayth, haha
jieying, purely cute
78.What colour did you use to dye yr hair?
BLACK
79.Why are you doing this test?
cos im bored.
80.What do you do when you are moody?
Be alone.
81.At which age do you wish to get married?
81 years old
82.Who is more important to you?
you tell me who.
83.If today was the last day of your life what would you do?
look for sarah and fayth and spend it making fun of romit
84.Who is the person you trust the most?
s and f and v and t
85.Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?
yeah. the sun sorta comes up and reflects on the water causing an illusion
86.If you had a dream come true wat would it be?
To have all my good dreams come true:D
87.What is your goal for this year?
find a friend.
88.Do you believe in eternity love?
sure do.
89.What feeling do you love the most?
Touched.
90.Do you think its Global Warming now?
nay.
91.What feeling do you hate the most?
proud and jealous
92,You like doing quizzes?
recently
93.Do you believe in God?
totally.
94.Who cares for you the most?
friends
95.What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
friends
96.What will you bring when you fight?
ROMIT YAW~~~~~
97.What have you regretted doing your whole life?
JOINING VISUAL ARTS. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
98.What would you do if nobody cared for you?
find enoch
99.What would you do if your boyfriend/girlfriend two-timed you?
my boyfriend/girlfriend wouldnt.
100.How do you feel now?
pissed. britney spears is calling me a womaniser.

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#1 Who is on your mind right now? loser

#2 What was the last thing you said to anyone? bye bye

#3 If you had one last drop of medication left in this world, and both your lover and your best friend is ill, who would you give it to? best friend (:
forgot.. i dun note of the time.

#4 What time did you go to bed last night? stop asking same thing over and over again can or not??

#5 What is right next to you? guitar

#6 Why are you doing this? no life

#7 What’s going to happen in 5 minutes? nothing

#8 What’s the best thing you have ever tasted? chocolate

#9 What contents are in your bag right now? palette, pencils, a bottle of black paint and coke.

#10 What school do you go to? SOTA.

#11 What year are you in? 1

#12 How many subjects are you taking? 7, 8?

#13 What are they? (in response to q. 12) ....

#14 Are you worried about anything today? nah.

#15 What were your plans for today? guitar lesson later

#16 Where do you want to be right now? outside

#17 Craving for anything right now? school

#18 What’s the last thing on your mind right now? duno. empty.

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Q)If you married the person you last texted?(sarah) i wouldnt mind, actually.

Q)What did you do today? craft a life for me

Q)What is one fact about the last person who called you?umm this is too embarassing

Q)How old were you when you lost your first tooth?cant remember ==

Q)Last time you were on the phone? 5 mins ago

Q)What's for dinner? no idea

Q)Ever been to the Statue of Liberty? yeap. twas sure boring

Q)How many e-mail addresses do you have? 198

Q)Last time you washed your hair? just now.

Q)Do you like Oreo? YEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

Q)Can you ice skate? yes! :D

Q)Do you have a brother? noooo.

Q)Do you know how to change a diaper? course. you just take it off and put on a new one.

Q)Do you keep a planner? nahhh.

Q)What kind of mood are you in? bored.

Q)Who was the last person that helped you stop crying ? sarah

Q)If you could change your name to anything what would it be? felicia donnings

Q)Would you move to another country to be with the one you love?yesssssss. D: BUT NOT TO CHINA, AFRICA OR INDIA.

Q)Have you ever talked on the phone while in the shower? daily.

Q) Are you afraid of falling in love? naahhh. its welcomed here.

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01. Starting with the second letter of your first name, think of a name that you could possibly change your name to and write it here.
Orange.

02. What is your favourite colour to write with?
Black.

03. Do you have a map of the world in your house?
yeah?

04. How old do you wish you were now?
Sixteen.

05. Do you think you have a crush right now?
yeah.

06. Go to your contact list in your phone. What is the 6th person's name?
awkwaaard(elizabeth)

07. Measure the length of your middle finger with a ruler and write the measurement here.
no idea.

08. What is ONE song that accurately defines your life?
living dead girl by rob zombie

09. Look out of your window. What do you see?
a bungalow opposite

10. Name the first and most important quality your future boyfriend/girlfriend must have.
nice and presentable

11. What is your favourite word?
buttcrack

12. Who do you wish was online MSN right now?
sarah, jerimiya, romit, fayth

13. What is the colour of the nearest tissue box to you?
Purple with green floral prints.

14. What is the colour of your ceiling?
blue and white

15. Have you ever been kissed by someone who does not belong to your family?
yeah.

16. When was the last time you went to a mall?
today

17. What do you want to eat right now?
ben and jerrys ice cream!

18. Where was the nicest beach you've ever been to?
no idea

19. Have you ever broken/fractured/dislocated any of your bones?
yeah.left foot four times

20. Whose blog did you last visit?
nikki

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1.The last person to tag you is? sarah

2. Your relationship with him/her?friend

3. Your 5 impression towards him/her?
- nice hair
- *ahem*prettylonglegs*ahem*
- procrastinates
- goes on blogger hiatus-es often
- smart ass

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you?gimme a hugg!

5. The most memorable words that he/she has say to you?hey, hang in there okay? you can talk to me. *hug*

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...wouldnt mind(better than ROMIT)

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will...not hate her

8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...her arm wrestling

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...she reveals the secret of norah jones

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...get her to realise that shes not that hairy after all. i assure you romit is worse.

11. Overall impression towards him/her is... one of the nicest people in the world.

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you? hyper. amused. disturbed.

13. The character of you for yourself is? hm.. hyper when on 24/7. overall nice, but i can protective about my friends. if you say a bad word about any one of them - watch out.

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is? my hand is not hard enough to whistand hitting SOMEONE's bag.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is? nay

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them. ILY

17. Bra or panties? what, i can't wear both? =.="

18. Chocolate or ice-cream? chocolate.

19. 10 people to tag.
1. romit 2. yuri-chan 3. sarah f 4. fayth 5. viraj 6. zhenting 7. marissa 8. enoch 9. andrew 10. raechel

20. Who is number 2 having a relationship with? (yuri-chan) joan(thats me!)

19. Is 3 a male or a female?(sarah) a boy. totally boy.

20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing?(marissa, raechel) arent they already together?

21. How about 5 and 8?
( viraj, enoch) HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

22. What is number 1 studying about?(romit) studying the art of being hot for INKA

23. When was the last time you had a chat with them?romit:msn, today yuri:msn, now sarah:phone, toady fayth:today, sms viraj:ystd, phone im tired la!

24. Is number 4 single?(fayth) i think so.

25. Say something about number 2.(yuri)stupid

26. What do you think about number 3 and 6 being together?(sarah, zhenting) hmm...

27. Describe number 9.(andrew) cute la!

28. What will you do if number 6 and 7 fights?(zhenting, mar) i'd laugh

2008-11-07T22:25:00.002+08:00

now i am going to put myself in the shoes of taylor swift's song, teardrops on my guitar. because, just because, no why.

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I need everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's just so funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

assuming 'drew' is that someone that i like. now, i wouldn't want that to happen cause drew is mrs crother's husband. anyway, in this case, i think i am supposed to love drew so deeply tht i only want the best for him and for him to be happy. so, he likes this girl and keeps talking about her, and i am like some kind of good friend to him only. i dont want to tell him that i like him, as that will only put him in a spot(he wants to be with the girl he likes but does not want to hurt my feelings). i am totally envious of that girl. i cover up all my emotions with a simple smile.

whenever i am with him, i see no one but him as he is beautiful in my eyes, even when he talks nonstop about that girl. but he does not know one thing: all i think about is him all night.

he is stuck in my head just like a irritating song stuck in your head for a car ide that lasts from alaska(sarah palin) to singapore(me!). he is the light, the hope in my life and i cry every night when the thought that i can never be with him comes to my mind. many other men(teardrops on my guitar) try to date me, but i turn them down one by one, leaving them in tears. explaining why i love him is like describing how water tastes like, that is, indescribeble.

that girl sure is lucky. she had better give her all in the relationship or she will regret it. he is so perfect, so... so... inhuman, if you could say(like edward cullen <3<3) he takes my breath away when i spend silent and akward moments with him.

i realise that it is impossible between us. we are too much of 'friends'. i'll grant him his happiness and give in. i am alone, all by myself. i know that he is happy, and thus i am. i heave a sigh and feel as if the rock in my chest has vanished. i put this incident away and maybe, just maybe, there will be peace for a moment.

he is the reason for everything. he is like life, taking up all the time but never enough time to fulfil you or me. he is all i need and if only i could just be with him.

but he does not love me.
i shall grant him his hapiness.

isnt that just so touching? this girl loves drew so much as to that she is willing to give him up and let him go towards his happiness, even when she has to suffer. i think that is waht love is all about: granting one another's happiness.

tomorrow i shall to the script the man who cant be moved. maybe not tomorrow but some time later.

2008-11-06T19:19:00.002+08:00

RULES:1. Put Your iTunes/Windows Media Player/ETC on Shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.
4. Put any comments in brackets after the song name.
5. Put this on your journal.

1. If someone says, “Is this okay?” You say? low. feeling low??
2.How would you describe yourself? big girls don't cry. yeah, i dont cry. oh, wait, I DO!
3.What do you like in a girl/guy? sugar. woohoo~~ yes i can feel the sugar coming.
4.How do you feel today? first love. okay. actually, i am!
5.What is your life’s purpose? cold shoulder. ehh, although i DO give SOME PEOPLE(sweeps a quick glance at romit and jing jie) the cold shoulder, NO it is NOT my life's purpose.
6.What is your motto? when i grow too old to dream. okay, totally. yknow, cos all old people dont dream and all.
.7. What do your friends think of you? 我不配. GOSH, is that so?
8. What do you think of your parents? obessesion. not exactly, hell, NO!
9.What do you think about very often? shake it. did i mention that i have a 'shake-it-all-out' session evveryday that lasts for 2 hours?
10.What is 2 + 2? mercy. yeah, please, this question is so difficult, please spare me mercy and dont ask.
11.What do you think of your best friend? ring ring ring. okay, she can be noisy SOMETIMES, but not ring ring ring.
12.What do you think of the person you like? tu sonrisa. too son risa? sorry, norah jones, aint my fault, blame elvis crespo.
13.What is your life story? koibitotachi no christmas. yea, cos everyday of my life is spent christmas-like, lights, trees and all.
14.What do you want to be when you grow up? Hot & cold. yeah sure, cos i totally PMS like a bitch.
15.What do you think of when you see the person you like? My girl. *utterly horrified at the accuracy of this* oh, my girl................... . . .
16.What will you dance to at your wedding? fly away. well, i must admit is doeshelp if my fiance is jingjie or romit.
17.What will they play at your funeral? 左边. totally, cos im the cheena version of beyonce. to the left, to the left.
18.What is your hobby/interest? lucky. yeah! lucky i have a hobby.
19.What is your biggest fear? don't stop the music. true, no music=no life
20.What is your biggest secret? London bridge is falling down. totally, cos only i and i know that.
21.What do you think of your friends? super no.1. yeah, true.
22.What will you post this as? waiting for you. waiting for you to read this.

2008-11-06T19:09:00.002+08:00

Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
- Cheek

How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
- okay

Who was the last person you took a picture of?
-isaac :D

How often do you see your ex?
- ??

Would you ever donate blood?
- maybe.

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
- course.

Do you want someone dead?
- yeapp.

What does your last text message say?
- Dnt do anth hasty ok?

What are you thinking about right now?
- my future darling. (that fuji camera with 3.0" LCD screen, 10 mega pixels and in black!!).

Do you wish someone was with you right now?
- yeah.

What time did you go to sleep last night?
- 2, 3am?

Where did you buy the shirt you're wearing now?
- Shanghai.

Is someone on your mind right now?
- yeah.

Who was the last person to text you?
- fayth!

Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- not really

What are you listening to right now?
- always be my baby

Did you sing at all today?
- think so.

When's the last time you cried?
- yesterday

Who were you with yesterday?
- my guitar.

Do you miss anyone?
- too many.

Who was the last person in your bed?
- hmmm...

Have you ever share a drink with your number one?
- yeah.

Do you want someone you can't have?
- yeah

When did you last talk to your brother or sister?
- 1039485 years ago.

Where were you at 2:02 am this morning?
- on my bed, playing the guitar.

Do you want to tell someone something?
- Yeah

Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?
- nope.

Are you keeping a secret from the one you love who needs to know the truth?
- NOPE! NOPE! and im happy im not.

Do you hate the last person you kissed?
- nope(and it WASNT my mom. or dad).

2008-11-05T20:43:00.003+08:00

the holidays are here and as i read other's blogs, i realise that all of them are rejoicing over the fact that it is the holidays. well, expect to find something different here. cos i am going to whine and complain about how bad and all that the holidays is now here.

firstly, loneliness and a sense of loss sets in as the holidays start(unless you are the kind of person who does not have ANY friends, or you go out everyday with friends). you sit in your room and start thinking of how nice it would be if school was on.

next, the lack of modern-aged civilization gets into you, unless you consider a sibling a sign of civilization. for me, it is no.

although you can talk to your friends through msn, skype or the phone, it is different. i cannot explain it. wait, let us interview fayth.

joan: why/how izzit different when u talk to your friends thru msn, skype or phone versus when u talk to them in real life

fayth:in real life, you notice the little details about that person, whether it be the way they laugh or the tilt of their head. if you do it virtually, you're more focused on the conversation and subject, therefore you dont pay much attention to detail. it's a loss in a way, because little things make up a person too.

okay so here it is. explained and all. thank you, fayth.

lastly, you are bored and feel useless. you sit infront of your computer or notebook and make some blogskins, play dota or audi, blog, read blogs, facebook etc etc.. and then at the end of the day, you realise that you have not done anything useful and you feel useless as you have not accomplished anything.

yeah and i am done.

2008-11-01T22:44:00.003+08:00

i hate being used. i hate it. sometimes i just feel that people just come to me when they're in need of help, comfort or if they need help in their art, in terms of exams, projects etc..

i do it for them, and then i don't get any credit.

its something like when the credits roll after a movie is done, no one sees it. all the crew members are not notices. without them, the movie would not be possible. in my case, without me, this entire project would be impossible. and they dare to call it a team work? in what ways, tell me, is this team work? i do everything. everything.

some people are just bad.

okay, im thirteen(soon) and should stop complaining, eh?

so now lets review about what happened on friday and why everyone was crying shit.

warning: don't read this if you think you can't take it

i will grade each... ...uh, issue upon how sad i am, 5 + signs being devastated, 1 + sign being neutral (and - being happy).

firstly, lofty is leaving. yea, and mr tobin will be replacing him. +++(i could see it coming)

next, ramsay is leaving, headed for italy(??) ++++

then, crystal is expelled. ----- ...

professor patricia hon is leaving.......(i dont even know who she is, sorry.)

don't ask about crystal. well, i think, that is just it. the music and visual arts people and romit were being totally unfeeling, prancing about, dancing, playing catching happily when everyone else was crying their guts, no, should be, spilling water like a fountain spurts water(??).

im almost done. my guitar is here, from taiwan. i am telling you about my life, which is an utterly lame thing to do. well, at least i don't go something like,

im so bored
holiday is here
miss all my friends
haizz
what to do?

no i don't to that, never. you know i hate it. but that is exactly how i feel. bye.

2008-10-29T21:24:00.002+08:00

here am i, trying to answer jing jie as he has some problems with me. this post here is going to ruin the image of my little blog here, but, after all, this is my blog. so here goes....

firstly, you tagged on the r5 class blog... oh whats your problem jo an. You seem to hv so musch problem with me hor ... i have no problem. the problem is that, i want to stay away from you because i dislike you. however, you disallow that by following me around, with today morning as a classic example. you folowed me wherever i sat, even when i had to sit in the r6 row because of you.

next, you said... when double inferno play, you dont cheer our class go another class cheer ... is it any of you business that i cheer for r5? the fact is, most of my good friends h appen to be in r6, which is the group the double inferno was playing in. besides, you are not from double inferno. people from double inferno, like me, dislike you. additionally, did they even complain that i did not support them? answer is, NO.

thirdly, you said... then still have to tell the whole world that i dont let you go kfc... it was not the whole world. just 3 of my good friends from r6 that i was hungry and that i wanted food. when they asked about our break and why i had not been to get food, i just said simply, jing jie did not allow us to go. that is all. oh and a few other people who saw me starving. the whole world?

and then... well there's a reason for that if they had gone, we miss our game, we lose... we had two extra people in our team. we could have jsut sent one of them to kfc, get food and come back without us losing. this is what ALL the other teams do.

yes i agree with this... which none of us want to

and then you added, so i stoppped you all and i somemore the game was in 20 minutes time how to rush back in time... the thing is, if one person had gone, it would not matter even if he or she did not make it back in time. it would not matter.

lastly you said... you so clever so slowly walk there, buy and come back lah, since you think its possible and still ask me let them go... well, it IS possible. i sprained and disloged my ankle. slowly walk there? i don't think so. i had food from another team from r6. i asked you to just let ONE person go. besides, you are not even the captain.

i have every single reason to be annoyed and to dislike you, considering the fact that you follow me everywhere at times, even in golf. if you have comments, tag them on the r5 blog, not on my tagboard. pollution, you see.

2008-10-29T14:05:00.002+08:00

there was a video screening today in the morning, diminishing memories by eng yee peng, a independent film maker from singapore. the show diminishing memories is about a village that she had lived in during her childhood times. the village is now demolished but she is going back to the location of the village.

she talked about her career after the video, or documentary, if you can call it one. she said that despite being rejected a few times by NUS's mass communications or film course, she did ot give up her dreams. after she got a diploma in business, she went on to pursue her dream of film making, in which she realised she had passion for when she was 17.

she said that in the making of diminishing memories part 1 and 2(which is yet to be screened), she had lost a total of eight kilograms. her family members and friends were concerned for her. so she said repetitively a sentence that has somehow, found its way in my brain.

dreams are important, but not that important.

i understand it alright. it means that, if you have a dream or goal in life, good. pursue it. but in the process of pursuing your dream, make sure that you don't hurt or worry the people that love and care for you, for example your relatives, family and friends.

it works for me.

now i am in a dilemma. i don't really find visual arts interesting. intstead, i want to go to theatre. however, im not good. i have no idea what to do. i do not want to turn out like Picasso, commiting suicide and all.

needing help,
joan.

2008-10-28T16:07:00.003+08:00

today i confessed about norah jones. today we went to the museum, singapore art museum, the former catholic high. today i helped s and v and t do the theatre posters for the year two performance, shakespeare-macbeth and hamlet.

so what. who cares what i did today. im just a tiny meeny leetle mite in this big big world, where there are up to six billion other homosapiens living in this world. i think visual arts is pathetic, and it is just because i love black. theatre is black, of course! i know it. i do. i really do. the only reason im still staying in visual arts is because of two obstacles: my parents and my lousiness, if you can call it, in theatre.

2008-10-26T16:56:00.002+08:00

i realise that i have been drifting away from the spirit, the essence of visual arts. in other words, i am starting to lose interest. but i am doing something about it. i am now trying to get back the flame by trying out different aspects of it, like photography, origami, photoshop graphics and even wire art, but these do not seem to work.

i enjoy doing it, yes i agree. everyone else would. i am better at it than the girl next door, that too, i agree. but i am drawn to another art form. the killer of all entertainment media. THEATRE. yes. one simple word: theatre.

i love it. i simply do. maybe it is because of the black, the darkness of the blackbox, or simply because i am fascinated by the lights, the colours and the elements of theatre. maybe i just love to move around and be active.

or maybe i just love it.

i think that visual arts is, as you guys would call it, too 'slack'. you just sit there, pick up a tool, like a pencil and start pouring all your creative juices onto the paper and it appears in the form of a drawing. i like that. but you don't move. no, you don't.

i like to move. to speak. to have fun.

and visual arts does not do that, i can gurantee.

i hope i can get over this soon. because i know that it is basically impossible for me to get a transfer to theatre. you know why?

that's because i'm lousy. yes, i'm lousy. i love theatre, but im not good enough.

that's it. goodbye.

2008-10-24T20:12:00.003+08:00

i broke down this morning. its bad, its private, and im not going to say why.

i think im going through this thing called the teenage phase. either that, or my parents are being bitchy, which is what s and f says. im not sure. well, all i can say is that trust is a very, extremely important thing in a relationship. and understanding. we must compromise each other and try to understand our point of views. i do that, i have been practising. visual arts, you see... perspectives. but not my parents. no. absolutely not. they don't try to understand me.

i have to live up to their expectations and do things that i don't exactly want to. and now i don't feel like blogging anymore.

2008-10-23T17:09:00.002+08:00

here are my results.
Literature, 44/60
Analysis Research Communication, 30/40
Chinese, 64/100
Science, 66/100
Maths, 70/100
Integrated Humanities Social Sciences, 27/50
Inter Disciplinary Unit, 46/60

2008-10-23T16:51:00.002+08:00

i have not been blogging for awhile, because i do not have a good topic to talk about. but now i do. on 21st of october, we had a visual arts exhibition, and i heard that it took a few students 6 hours to set it right, all the art pieces, mounting, arrangement, food and beverages etc etc.

wow. never knew there was so much in an exhibition. firstly, there is the form of art work. for example, a wall of about 3.6m x 8m can hold up to 10, 20 a3 pieces. the pieces must complement each other, in terms of colour tones, form and size. when you look at the body of artworks as a whole, it is seen as 'one', and the audience can take an insight on the ones that they fancy.

next, there were mixed media done by the year twos, and i thought that the mixed media was really great. they were 100% original, complicated, and in other words, beautiful. the year ones had ceramic pieces, contour line drawings, perspective drawing, line quality, and irregular shaped pencil sketches. personally, i feel that the year twos did a better job. also, the sanitary pad umbrella was there too, though one of the sanitary pads dropped out and the stick of the umbrella snapped under the weight.

now i am in the school library, waiting for theater to be done with their playback theater rehearsal, which happens tomorrow, 6 to 8. there is a complimentary concert at 7.30 later. the organizers called our school and offered a hundred tickets. of course, we got more than a hundred requests from the students, but thankfully, they gave us all we needed. it is part of the Singapore sun festival, the UBS verbier festival chamber orchestra with gaibor takacs and fredica von stade. basically, it is a few singers from the Vienna boys choir, with the above mentioned singers, and a chamber orchestra, which is a medium sized group with about 60 people.

i have a feeling tomorrow's playback theater will be a great success, as the audience will get involved too. the thespians will get the audience to share a memory with them as they act it out on the spot. next, we had to clean up the ceramics workshop, the drawing room, the painting room, the studio and the sculpture studio today. it was hard work, including scraping off the wall paint that was left from last time off the floor. lets see, i have learnt that... ...scraping paint, especially WALL PAINT, is hard work. we also had to mop the floor with fast orange, sweep, organize the shelves etc etc.

i need to go think of something now, goodbye.

2008-10-20T20:25:00.002+08:00

today, the new year ones came. i did not really go with the visual arts, dance or music. i just stuck round with the theatre people. i think, this batch is a hard batch. i think they are abit conservative, especially biscuit.

biscuit was asked to put her arms around f(a sota person) to act a scene, for about 10 seconds, then she was like, NO! not going to do it.

why that reaction, i mean no need to be over-conservative, c'mon, its theatre. okay, maybe it was what their parents taught them, its okay.

next, barbie. barbie is a bitch. barbie, came in makeup, plastic attitude, and to top it off, a HIGH nose. about 50% of the sota population says 'barbie is a bitch!' barbie will have a hard time. did you know that barbie glares at people? did you know that barbie is pissed and irritated over every single thing? did you know that barbie's mom is proud too?

yes. and yada yada about barbie. hmm. there is a chain mail(sms) being circulated around about barbie, i guess? just a few hours in school and barbie is already famous, so as to a point that there are songs being composed about her. WOW. barbie glared at me. and s and f. for wating ice cream.

next, there is chadrangupta. during open house, when the theatre students were demonstrating a usual lesson and it happened to be juggling. the whole point of it was not juggling, it was getting focused on the balls and coordinating your hand and eye movements. then, chadrangupta said right in their(theatre people) faces, 'my grandma can juggle better'. and now she is in sota. since we are such amateurs to her, why? why is she in sota? why? fine, maybe her grandmother is a juggler in some kind of circus troupe. WHATEVER.

2008-10-19T14:46:00.008+08:00

lets talk politics. for the US presidential elections, john mcCain from the republicans and barrack hussein obama are against each other. mcCain claims that there will be a tax cut for 5% of america's population (the rich and upper class), while obama claims that 95% of america's population, meaning the middle and lower class, as well as civil servants e.g.teachers, nurses, firemen etc. will enjoy a tax cut.

naturally, most people would, already, support our dear obama. now, lets move on to their running mates. under mcCain is sarah palin, whill under obama would be joe biden. mcCain pucked a woman, sarah palin, so that he can win over some of hilary clinton's supporters(gender buyousness) however, sarah palin does not have much experience in politics as she is still young, rumour has been going around, claiming that mcCain wanted to pick a younger running mate, so if he 'croaks', there will still be a young vice president. sarah palin has a bad record for having a daughter that is pregnant at age seventeen. on a recent interview, she claimed that she is familiar with foreign politics, as she lives in alaska and russia is just over the border, which is, needless to say, ridiculous. (watch the video, notice her 'umm's and 'ahh's, as well as her fidgety movements)

ridiculous.
i guess you can't blame them.
some people are just like that.

obama has picked an older running mate as joe biden is more experienced and he needs the advice, considering the fact that he has only been in the office for four years or so. you can see clearly that in debates, obama is more charismatic and supports his speech with numbers, so that the voters know what is going around. look at the video between obama and mcCain, notice how mcCain blinks too much and how he just goes over and over again on a few points.

yeap yeap.
i know politics is boring and all, but, hey, you need to know stuff, dont be like ro_it roy.

2008-10-18T23:27:00.003+08:00

i read this book called the time traveler's wife, by audrey niffenegger. it is a adult themed book, a romance story. at the end of it, there is a really good um... stanza, or paragraph, if you could call it. anyway, here goes.

now from his breast into his eyes the ache
of longing mounted, and he wept at last,
his dear wife, clear and faithful, in his arms,
longed for as the sunwarmed earth is longed for by a swimmer
spent in the rough water where his ship went down
under Poseidon's blows, gale winds and tons of sea
few men can keep alive through a big surf
to crawl, clotted with brine, on kindly beaches
in joy, in joy, knowing tht abyss behind:
and so she too rejoiced, her gaze upon her husband,
her white arms around him pressed as tough forever.

-from the odyssey
HOMER
translated by ROBERT FITZGERALD

i just love the way homer describes the longing of him, for his wife. this kind of love, is pure, sweet and irresistibly... ...

i can't describe it. read the book. it's good.

but it is mature, as in there are scenes that are inappropriate for the young and the young at heart(young as in below 12). But overall, it is good. what is a good novel with no mature themes?

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2008-10-18T10:18:00.002+08:00

nameless, lets get this clear once and for all yes? for one, i DO NOT study in the lame lame ATS. i study in SOTA, school of the arts SINGAPORE, year one. i am a visual arts student. think i'm immature? no, maybe if i was from ATS, i would be, but, no... i am from school of the arts, a school that you might not even dream of entering.

next, i just don't like your blog because it is self centered. EVERYTHING IS ABOUT YOURSELF.
you want mushroom soup, you went to kfc etc etc.

lastly, you use incorrigibly bad english in your blog. you add an 's' behind almost all the words so they turn out this way

hey nameles ..
ATS-rians eh ?
well ..
youre alitte
immature .. rites ?
i mean ..
i dunt lyk even noe yous ..

yes, brainless, no thinking blog posts. you don't bother to read on and find out that i WAS in ats, but currently in school of the arts. in this short, short exerpt from you post to me, we can see that you spell nameless as nameles, ats-sian as ats-rians, a little as alittle, right as rites, don't as dunt, like as lyk, know as noe, you as yous.

aren't you just ALITTLE embarassed? (detect the sarcasm)

tsk tsk. who are you? grace,13?

go study some english before you come back.

to all the other people, sorry that this post is so brainless, but i really need to make things clear with nameless. and thank you, bobo for scolding nameless.

2008-10-17T14:16:00.002+08:00

im really happy today, though i got my foot wrapped up in gunks of white material and litres of black liquid. im really happy.

emotionally, not physically.

sometimes, you just feel it, the happiness. totally random and useless. but i feel happy.

i feel at peace, and i guess its because i sorted out my thoughts about a couple of problems that i had earlier on. and i prayed really hard.

from now on, i shall attempt to not give a damn about worldly possessions, ant put myself in the shoes of someone who has just been through an earthquake and lost everything, all the earthly possessions on a regular basis.

you should try that too, but first few times, if you're really into it, you might cry. hey! you just lost all your stuff. like, duh~~ but you'll feel okay after awhile.

bye.

2008-10-16T12:52:00.002+08:00

today, im on crutches. my hands hurt from using them. i guess its just retribution(for whaat!)

anyway, im feeling really crappy, with nothing to write about today. BUT i want to introduce my new poetry blog. its bozofied-words.blogspot.com

so link it as soon as possible, kay?

right so this is gonna be a lame, lame post with no thinking so bye bye!

2008-10-15T21:40:00.002+08:00

something triggered me to write this post today. something that happened

human relations, are basically, to me, friendship, relationships in terms of a love relationship etc., and interaction between humans

some people are just not worth your time. or respect. they just put on an act, and when they need you, they go all out to make you do something, and when you're not capable of doing so, you get 'fired'. nope, not even in extreme cases with REALLY valid reasons.

however, some people that you never notice in life might just turn out to be one of the best people when you are in need of someone to talk to, to confide in and maybe, to complain to. like my dear v and s and f, thanks for giving me ideas on how to get rid of norah jones.

this world is turning, spinning really fast. its a world of truths and lies, minus the truths.

not saying that truth does not exist, but how do you confirm that the report about the melamine case is true and not fake? have you seen it for yourself? no.

including humans. friends. enemies. and the calefares in your life. the calefares, i think, affect your lives most.

okay. bye!

2008-10-14T10:32:00.003+08:00

my grandfather is in the hospital. something wrong with his intestines. bloated, i think.

i have no idea how my mind works. when i sit down, take a book(textbook) and attempt to memorise some stuff, it doesn't work for me. but when i sit down with a group of people and listen to them test each other, listen to their answers, all, and i mean EVERY SINGLE WORD goes into my brain and stays there for the next 18 years. i have no idea why. then when i need to dig up the information from the gigantic pile in my brain, i find it, then i can distinctly hear the person's voice saying it, the tone, the pitch and all.

i guess that is what you might call a tape-recording brain?

lets make a list of brains.

first, there is the photocopy brain. the brain that looks at something and imprints it into the head

next, there is the tape-recording brain, which is basically MY brain.

then, there is the copy-it-all brain. this brain tortures the hand by writing all the notes three times over before it finally registers.

lastly, there is the brain-dead brain, in which nothing happens inside.

that's all i can think of. i wonder if the mainstream people find my blog lame, maybe they prefer those that annoy me? i find no happiness in reading those. zero brain power posts.

2008-10-13T16:15:00.003+08:00

the volleyball tournament is in 2 days. school will end in 17 days. you might be happy, no, you MUST be happy. but i am not. the moment school ends we will have less interaction with people. well, at least this applies for me. anyway, when school ends, i will miss a few people. viraj, kimberly, fayth, sarah and many, many others.

i wish i had a sibling(yes, i know-i've always hated them) but my sibling must fulfill these criteria(s).
one. same age as me
two. not bitchy
three. kind but fun
four. have sarah's hair
five. have viraj's wit
six. share the same loves and hates as me
seven. must be gay
eight. must be a perfect sister that i can share weal and woe with

no other meaning to number seven, just want to experience it. mmm...

that is why i never ever want to have a sibling. you'll never ever find someone as perfect as this. you might say that i am selfish etc etc, but i do not mind. i know i am.

now to number seven. are you against gays? i am not. do not take it personally but i think that they are cool. not that i am one, just that i feel they must be brave and unique enough to tell the world, hey, i am a gay. to admit it. to tell the world who they really are. to find their identity. one day, i'm sure the government will find out that there is nothing wrong with gay marriages. it is up to us who, in terms of gender, age, etc etc, we want to like. our prefrences and nothing should stop us from doing so.

nothing against gays.
-joan

P.S. i have currently taken a liking to justify all my posts.

2008-10-12T16:33:00.002+08:00

i am so glad, i wrote a post that even sarah does not understand, and, no, sarah, i do not scare people in visual arts this way. it just comes out when im typing on the blog. just utter rubbish. maybe if i joined theatre, i might, but the merciful me has decided not to do it since i am in the very-folorn-and-non-glory-recieving visual arts.

right. so today i attended church and then it was pretty boring, so i was daydreaming(NOT STONING, SARAH) but the teacher-or-whatever-u-call-her said something that concentrated my attention wonderfully. anyway, to cut the long story short, i pity everyone is ee on the streets.
serious.

i see the hawker-store owner and wonder if she able to pay the rent.
i look at the maid following the employer and wonder if she is being abused.
the old lady selling tissue paper at the mrt station -is she coping well?

many things to worry about
so in this world, you must, first, learn to mind your own business.

but i cannot seem to. my heart goes out to all the people that are not as fortunate as me or you. i want to help them, and it seems i might just have found my ambition-i am going to set up a company that educates these pitiful people FOC, then get them some work that pays.

but we all know it is impossible.

look at those samatrians that go on the television for being good. but then, again, there look at those that add melamine into infant milk and dairy products out of worldly greed.

look at those people who go on the television for meeting with a misfortune, like a car accident, rape etc. how do they go on and cope with their lives? i would be at a total loss. yes.

so now, before i meet with some kind of misfortune, i am going to engage a guitar teacher and get myself a new guitar. and in the meantime, try to find out if katy perry is really lesbian, and if her boyfriend is just a cover to hide her true colours from the press.

with love,
joan.

2008-10-11T10:03:00.002+08:00

yes. this holiday, no, i should say, from the time exams are over till the time holidays end, im going to go for guitar lessons. acoustic guitar lessons. and i shall buy a new guitar. i cannot imagine what life without music would be like. people living in the world love music, like me. or maybe sarah. and fayth. many other people. but what can we do about it? look at all those unsigned good singers on youtube. they're so much better than us but they're still not signed. there is nothing we can do to change anything.

sometime i feel that
i have no significance in this world.
even if i am dead
no one would really notice.

nothing would change,
everything as usual.

i am just another one of the enfinite amount of homosapiens
living in the communal world.

i am selfish. i want this world to myself

xoxo
feeling selfish

2008-10-10T11:42:00.002+08:00

lets talk about art.
as in visual arts
yes i know this may not be very interesting to you, but still,

the area of art not only includes comics, drawings, paintings, but also other more adventurous things like installation, body art, sculpture and some other things
but, art is really getting a bit too out of hand, don't you think? i went to the museum and there were little kids running all around the place. suddenly, this few people, models(both male and female), came out. they were naked. but not exactly stark naked. their bodies were painted.
not that i am some lame person, i appreciate it that i get to see body art, but not with the kids around, they're kids.

i really don't get why book store put some of the art/photography/design books in the no browsing section. i guess it is because there are just a few vulgarities, naked bodies and other things that might not be suitable for children. i tried to read it, but got chased away. what is the whole point of that, i mean, c'mon... its art.

this artist. paul davis. he made a few series of pieces of a make-believe character, clint flick. since i cannot exactly show you guys the pictures, i'll just type the accompanying text out.

first, here follows the key events in the life of uber-swearer
clint flick-
1962, ten months old, at home with his dad, who soon left--
fuck. bluuuh

second, 1979,eighteen years old(on the dole, lonely.)--
FUCK, i need a fuck

third, 1996, thirty-six years old,(street in camden town)
FUCK if i fucking know

fourth, just turned forty(live in lover,a ladyboy named venus, is angry with clint)
fuck you, venus, you fuck, i never fucked your fucking fucker for fuck's sake, so just fuck off.

yeah i am done. sorry if u did not like it. i do.

xoxo

2008-10-09T20:46:00.003+08:00

today i have a few things to say before anything else happens. firstly, i would like to thank all the r6 people who gave me my due last minute IHSS revision. and the volleyball tournament is next Wednesday. lastly, there will be a Olivier Messiaen music concert on 29th october. click HERE for details. 2 people from sota will be performing and my painting will be on the concert brochure. if you want it, you can contact me. because i can get it at half price. lastly, fayth's mom has a shop at takashimaya, the better toy store.

now to the black talk. (no, its not a bad thing)

BLACK AND WHITE ARE NOT COLOURS, BUT A PHILOSOPHY. MOREOVER, AS BOTH AVOID A CLEAR CHROMATIC DEFINITION, THEY CAN BE REGARDED IN PROGRAMMATIC TERMS.

let us remain initially in the field of colour theory and deal with the media of relevance to the work of designers. firstly, there is the addictive colour system to be considered, which for example, is employed for the production of printed matter. the addition of just a few colour glazes, genarally four in total, allows the attainment of innumberable nuances by the means of overprinting. the printing of all four collour one ON TOP of another, gives you a deep black. HOWEVER, BEFORE the designer prints something, in general he or she works with a computer, in which everything functions in precisely the REVERSE fashion. this is because the monitor works with light. only three colours are used on a computer monitor, and where these overlap, the result?

a brilliant white.

black and white represents concentrations, concentrations transported by colour. black and white condense every piece of information, black and whiteconstitute an extract, composed of the sum of all information.

for this reason, i would plead that in future alll televisons, displays , illuminated signs and computer monitors should be white and that all newspapers, posters and books be in black.

2008-10-08T13:07:00.002+08:00

hi. today was ihss and tomorrow is maths, so i am pretty free today. i dont study for maths. no. not ever.

lets talk about... ambitions.
i have had many, many ambitions. a cleaner, a forensic pathologist, an artist etc etc.

but now i realize, none of this might happen. i might just die right in front of your face tomorrow and then my ambition will just go pop! and then someone else will replace me. and then the same thing will happen.

now's the exam period. people are studying like mad.
what is the meaning of it
you've got one shot at life
and you should live it to the fullest.

why torture yourself this way?
just go with the flow.
i hate those people who go, oh. i want to be a doctor when i grow up so i can make lots of money. they should go oh, i want to be a doctor when i grow up because i want to save the lives of others.

yeah. i have no ambition or goal.
i don;t really care if you want to be a lawyer or whatnot.
but i have no ambition.
wish i could just get out of here,
this world where you must get number one for everything
where you will not survive without money

i hate the person who created currency...
qin shi huang?
no. the humans. that's us.
my ambition is to become a freelance person,
working as and when i want to,
doing what i want to.
no, not an artist. i might not want to be one.

anything. but not for money.

frustrated,
joan

2008-10-05T16:39:00.002+08:00

i found out a NEW WORD. masquerade. what does it mean?
lets see... according to MY OPINION, it is uhh... pretending to be someone that is not you.
according to DICTIONARY.com,
–noun

1.	a party, dance, or other festive gathering of persons wearing masks and other disguises, and often elegant, historical, or fantastic costumes.

2.	a costume or disguise worn at such a gathering.

3.	false outward show; façade; pretense: a hypocrite's masquerade of virtue.

4.	activity, existence, etc., under false pretenses: a rich man's masquerade as a beggar.

–verb (used without object)

5.	to go about under false pretenses or a false character; assume the character of; give oneself out to be: to masquerade as a former Russian count.

6.	to disguise oneself.

7.	to take part in a masquerade.

wahh... so chim. anyway, i feel really bad. today i was questioned by another uncle from the church about my school. for the fifth time. yeah. all the norm retarded questions AGAIN, all over from the start, with ten year's explaining to do. so i just simply told him, my school is at the orchard there, you know, cathay... we study all the normal stuff english, home econs and ya lah, just that got longer art lesson only. and study for six years, come out no need go JC, just go to any university of your choice.

the simplest explanation i can come up with in 10 seconds flat. and FYI, no home econs for us. yes. and no D&T.

now a video.

Spongebob cranks dat soulja boy chipmunk voices

so here are a couple more parodies, so if u dont recgonise the songs, go away, period.

james blunt, you're beautiful

7 things

beautiful

barbie the bitch

Justin Timberlake & Britney Spears - Mad Tv Parody - Mtv

i think this is pretty enough for now.

ciao!

2008-10-04T11:35:00.002+08:00

heys. i have not been able to study as usual, but i think i am going to pass everything. and animal farm is on youtube!! yay.

ANIMAL FARM 1

ANIMAL FARM 2

ANIMAL FARM 3

ANIMAL FARM 4

ANIMAL FARM 5

ANIMAL FARM 6

yeah. so the whole show is like 50plus minutes. FYI, the music is totally played and singed by our music faculty. yeah, even the music orchestra. cool! hahas, anyway, Dashini is snowball, Gwen is uhh.. napolean? and potianak is squealer. yeah, the girl with the GIGANTIC rip. and, thank you mr wang for uploading them!!

next, volleyball. our poster was edward cullen waring a wig, saying... your grandma is so cool that even edward cullen wants to impersonate her. so i saw this year 2 girl and her bunch of friends touching edward cullen. eeeee.

my dream. last night i dreamt that i was at this GIGANTIC condominium with marissa. and then we were playing catching, just the 2 of us. but it was not normal catching. we could fly and the game lasted 4 hours and we were not tired after that. AT ALL. next will be the list of memoreable dreams i have had so far.

the flying condor dream i had with sarah
the amazing adventure with fayth, on a quest to pull out jing jie's hair
the dream where stephenie sun came over to my house and we were like old friends
the dream where i was a great pianist, and sarah was my cleaner.
my catching game with marr.
everyone in sota was happy together. everyone was a couple. but everyone was gay, because there was not enough suply of guys. i was with some secret person that im not gonna tell u (i was gay too, in my fream)

P.S. fream=freaking dream

yeah. i am sorta done with my post so bye bye. cheerios! and i finally finished twilight series. now reading sarah's jodi piccoult book, the pact. some kinda love story that involves some suicidal pact and a couple of sex scenes, but overall it is a good novel. it is still on the waiting list. first sarah read it, then gloria, then me, next is luyi and bleh bleh bleh.

2008-10-02T16:11:00.002+08:00

i have NO IDEA why i am doing in the school library. oh, right. im waiting for sarah and viraj to be dismissed from theatre so i can take my usual joyride home. so there are people around me and i feel really bad. no idea why, but just BAD. like, HELLO. okay.

today we had a maths mock test and it was like really easy so i completed it like 45minutes before so i was going like...OMG i have 45 more minutes to stone before the time is finally up and i can get something to do. i was happy enough to just take a lovely nap and dream one of my wildest dreams. HOWEVER, something bad happened. mr koh was like, who has finished, raise your hand. so i was like bang and my hand was high up there, flying victoriously like some kind of flag going on a sure-win war. yea. next, he took my paper, scanned through it and gave me a frog-like smile. then he passed me this thick stack of maths toot and told me to do the first page.

now its really getting on my nerves, talking about MY LIFE. so im now reading the book tht i bought together with the twilight series, theft by peter carey. its some kind of love story, a novel. really cool. but now im reading a book lent to me by sarah, jodi piccoult, the pact. yeah. anyway, im looking at xia xue's posts(agaiN) and then, i dont see anything special in them. just the usual. not like sarah's. sarah has a deep blog. should be no.1. not like xia xus. just that singaporeans literature and english not good enough. thats all, nothing wrong with sarah. bye bye.

P.S. i suck at polygons.

2008-10-01T12:09:00.002+08:00

right, so today is a holiday!! kay. my fever is gone, and sarah got it. today is her birthday, so...

Happy Birthday Comments click here..

yayyyy! u are 13!!!!
okay. nothing much to blog about. life is such a bore.
i just realised that im gonna spend my birthday on 17 november in the crappy china village. im wallowing in self despair now, trying to find some black hole to suck me in to some adventure.

right. tara told me that once, she had a dream. her dream was like, she was on a ship and basically she fell into the sea. there was water in her mouth and when she woke up, there was puke in her mouth so she just swallowed it. hahahahahahaha. i cracked up for 15 minutes or so.

kay.
one more video than byebye. this is from deathnote, so if u dont noe what it is, get lost.

2008-09-28T17:29:00.002+08:00

yesterday viraj went to f1 for free because of some reason. and then she said she saw 2 gays making out. fourth one encountered this month. so she told me that the gays have united and have come upon us. i asked her what that was, she said some lame dialogue if star wars was about a gay villain. i mean like lol? and she added that the angmohs were drinking like nobody's business. so i got her a solution. to form her own hindi bolleywood dance group, invite romit and dance like nobody's business. but she said i'd rather make a club that flicks noodles at romit.

anyway, back to the point. i figured that i should rest as much as i can, taking panadols half an hour before i plan to study. and i could only study for 3 hours before the panadol starts to wear off and i get headaches again. i try to keep to less than 5 panadols a day. hmm i wonder when my wierdish sickness will end. this is the timetable for my exam, and i have completely no freaking idea why im telling you, but, gosh, just read it.

7.10, mother tongue
8.10, IHSS
9.10, maths
10.10, arc
13.10, science
15.10, literature

great. i have justified everything. i have not done my chinese homework. both the mock test and the worksheet. im screwed, ain't i? i pulled myself together and did filing this afternoon. my table was covered with so many layers of papyrus that i could not see it.

2008-09-27T10:38:00.003+08:00

yesterday i still had fever and did not eat anything. today, still. mr g's family in glasgow offered a live telecast of the his funeral today at 4.15, singapore time. i found it pretty interesting that online funerals existed. anyway, we recieved a letter addressed to our parents. here goes.

the family of the late mr gary gilchrist wishes to convey their thanks to pupils and staff of sota for their kindness and messages they sent.

the funeral will be conducted in his hometown, glasglow, UK, this saturday 28 september 2008 at 4.15pm (Singapore time). the family has also provided a live feed of the service, conducted in the chapel of glasgow university, Scotland, for those who would like to be present at the funeral. the website is set up at http://mcu.gla.ac.uk/chapel-live.html

yeah. so... sarah, don't deny. i made a picture of u and mr mraz already and u guys look oh-so-compatible. but im not gonna put it here for the sake of your privacy and stuff??

next, as u know, i passed my grade 7 piano exam. okay, actually i barely passed. i am gonna take classical guitar next. im currently learing this song on piano, chopin's etude in e major. here is a classical guitar version, by a japanese dude. enjoy :D

Chopin ショパン- Étude Op. 10, No. 3 別れの曲

here is the full version on piano.

freddy kempf - chopin, etude op. 10 no. 3

here is an acoustic guitar song.

Pirates of the Caribbean [Main Theme] on guitar

notice how differently they hold the guitar in the classical and acoustic. and the tempo. yeah. kay. i need to go now. byeeee!

2008-09-26T17:41:00.002+08:00

anyway, these ware a a vid from the arts fest.

2008-09-26T17:01:00.002+08:00

today is friday, so we're supposed to reach school before 9. so today was raining really badly. my dad sent me to the bus stop at shunfu so i could meet up with sarah. we waited for like 2 minutes than viraj came out of bus 410 and greeted us with a smile :) we took 162 to smu and waited for 14. the board that told the time was screwd up, so we did not know what time the bus was coming. in the process of waiting for about half an hour, we did the bus14 dance, similar to the rain dance. we were drenched as two inconsiderate bus unvles just zoom past and all the water just go splash. all wet. ya. so next, bus14 came at about 8.45. i was pratically yelling retard to the bus that drenched us. by the time we got onto the bus, i was begging for edward(yes, the vampire dude from twilight) to come and zoom us to school. there were a few other sota people on the bus so we were not that alone after all. we got down ad 9.10 and the gate was about to close. so we(about 6 people) ran to the gate and got in safely. the gate was opened till later today because an mrt broke down and there was a car accident. so i sat in my ex-rugby team. we were called up to stage and presented with a medal that said Year 1 2008 rugby tournament, 1st runner up. i did not really get what was 1st runner up but i sorta guessed it was bronze as that was the colour of the medal.

and the rest was not important.

anyway, i feel really lousy now. i cant study. i cant concentrate. my mind keeps wondering away to somewhere far. yeah. and the test is like 1 week away, and all my fellow schoolmates are under stress and mugging it out, but i dont find anything to worry about. im starting to think that maybe i am taking things too relaxed?

hmmm. prolly, but its a good thing yea,?

i need to go find some homework to do now. and thus i should bade goodbye to all my darling fellow audience out there reading this post. cos i am from hong kong.

totally randomm. i miss animal farm. i've searched the whole of youtube and all i can find is just crappy animal farm stuff. sota is the best. i loved it, though i went for the lousiest performance, the one with giggling,

but still goodbye.

2008-09-25T17:27:00.003+08:00

today i had a fever. so i got to skip my chinese test. and i puked during science cos i saw too much of a teacher. and i was in the general office for about 1 and a half hours untill viraj and sarah came to 'pick me up'.

anyway, i have something called a lym node ??? what's that... today me and viraj and sarah did a conversion of our subjects to the main stream subs.

SOTA--- MAINSTREAM

visual arts--- art class

media literacy ---computer class

analysis research comm. ---english

literature--- literature

theatre --- speech and drama cca

dance --- dance cca

music ---music lesson

integrated humanities --- geography and history
social science

interdisciplinary--- english compositional writing remedial class
unit

yea. and basically all the others are ths same. sounds abit mean but, well its true. i need to go now cos im really feeling diiiizy and i need to go shield my eyes from this despairing light illuminating from the wierd rectangle thing in front of me. (in other words, the PC.)

2008-09-24T19:14:00.002+08:00

so my life story so far...

i got 40 over 50 for arc, which is a pretty good mark, with the fact that i did not write a conclusion taken into deep consideration.

im the vice captain for the upcoming volleyball season and here are some of the details.

team name, your grandma
captain, rayman
vice captain, joan
fitness coach, jocelyn
covenor, kimberly
asst. publicity manager, kimberly
publicity manager, christine
equipment manager, olivia
statistician, jing jie
safety manager, crystal

basically, rayman does not care so i have to do everything.

now to the december holiday assignment ''(yes so fast already know)''
its just a visual arts assignment. we have to do at least 1 drawing a day of visual records. in other words, its a diary but in picture form.

and im a audio learner. im in visual arts and i expected to be a visual learner but, hey, who knows

i passed my piano exam by 5 marks. i was devastated. i did not expect such low marks, with my perfect pitch taken into deeeeper consideration.

im gonna take classical guitar next. my mind is made up. partly because of mr. mraz and his girlfriend who is in sota. ahemsarahahem.

im sorta like going through my life, which i think is totally, as in totally unimportant. i really hate myself for doing so. it semms like all the words im writing now is all about me, me and only me. yea.

goodbye.

2008-09-24T18:57:00.002+08:00

life and its meaning

life. such a big word. what is the meaning of life? i am trying to ignore all the ongoing gossip now, as well as all the friend problems and concentrating on thinking life. we just live it once and just got one shot at it. no mistakes, or bye bye for you. the gossip about how the bimbo sitting beside you in literature did something with another guy does not affect your life, does it? no. it does not. what is the point of learning and making yourself suffer and do the things you dont want to when you can be carefree and do the things you want? if only the world was happy and ladila, no one did bad things, everything free, there's school but only the people who want to go, go to school. not saying that i hate school, i love it. i love the freedom we get daily, being able to just walk out of painting class and come back without a sound scolding from a teacher. i love it that the principal, mrs chew, is not fierce and scary and anti social like some others. i love it that im in sota. its just that i hate the way people vie for fame and fortune, the way people fight their way to popularity and the way we compete against each other for many, many useless things and not realise that we all have our own strong points.

but then again, i tell myself: hello, joan... this is reality, singapore requires you to get a good overseas phD degree and slog your life out for another 30 to 45 years or so before the minimal, near nada amount of cpf comes to you and you can enjoy special senior citizens priviliges. by then i would not have anymore energy to do anything with my old rusted life. i think that in life, we should just do the things we want to do. take me for example, i want to experience being in a relationship. then maybe i can go to belgium to have some chocolate and then jog to egypt and see a pyramid with the mummy and all. yess and that is all. i am gonnna make a new post later to tell u guys about the other not-so-important things that happened.

2008-09-21T17:23:00.002+08:00

song and music

first, today's topic will be music. now lets take a look at this. by the way. its 7 things by miley cyrus. and for those childish people out there, yes. its hannah montana. things i WONDER about it

why does my dear miley go sha, sha, sha at the start of the song?
she can't count. there are 11 things she likes. but it says seven.

these are the lyrics:(i've bolded all the things she likes)
shh shh shh I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we've shared

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
and Now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear, my dear

The 7 things I hate about you

The 7 things I hate about you oh you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and it's silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
when you mean it, i'll believe it
If you text it, i'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh I'm not coming back
You're taking 7 steps here
The 7 things I hate about you
You're vain, your games, you're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
You're friends, they're jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

and Compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the 7 that I like

The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi's
When we kiss i'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined, everything's alright
I wanna be, with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do ooh
You make me love you shh shh
You do

see, 11. im correct.

yeah, here is another one. its supposed to be a joke.

lawl!!

so let me brag abit about my new school campus. it has 10 storeys. it has rooftop garden and retail outlets. it has fitness centre and a big LCD screen as u walk in. it has exhibition gallery.also have indoor gym and many other stuff. *************woah-ing***********OMG-ing**************

yea. i noe. so cool rite?
i have a SUPER big secret and im not gonna say it

ne ne ni poo poo!@

bye!

2008-09-21T17:22:00.002+08:00

really, yohoho

2008-09-21T17:22:00.001+08:00

yohoho

2008-09-19T16:24:00.002+08:00

unappropriate

yesterday, i was waiting for sarah and viraj to finish theatre. i waited for a long time, when they finally came out, they were crying. i sorta predicted that. i think that the school should stop reminding people about that bad incident and wait till things are more stable, like 1 month later than do stuff. but well, this is, still a personal feeling. it really pains me to see a sad bunch of people when they can be happy and happy.

oh and viraj says that she was reading the blogs of those who are coming into sota next year. she said that they are really lousy blogs. as in they tell their life story, not to mention the fact that all of their posts are DEAD SHORT. they only complain and gossip. they will geddit from our media literate teachers next year. if they continue doing this. here is an exerpt.

haha. today i went to kfc with jack and chrizz <3333. we order chiken. den u noe arr, the chiken so oily u noe... but no bone. i order the hot and spicy one. very yummy la, but after this must lose weight larh... lawls. so funny. haha

yes, so u see what i mean... and there is a really bad person who talked stuff about sota arts fest. i feel like punching him right smack in the middle of his face. but im not gonna put the url here. just go search Beng @ SOTA Arts Festival o google blog search.

uhuh. so i think the theatre peeps are going to do mac beth (or i hope). that was what mr g always wanted to do. today we had a chinese test. it was a mock test only, and i failed it. we had a long talk on studying and stress by some mrs yasmin(??) it was pretty cool...

romit was trying to convince everyone that his mom was a theatre teacher when, really, his mom was really a speech and drama teacher. lots of people saw his mommy at the theatre workshop and said she was like romit. he probably got his gene from her.

2008-09-18T16:24:00.002+08:00

hmm im really frustrated. i really typed lots of stuff in my lasts post. all my feelings and thigs but i just cannt seem to post it@@ and when i find the problem, i will post it. today was okay. we did volleyball and decded to call our team volleywood.
like bollywood or hollywood. im in school now waiting for sarah and viraj to finish theatre. so. yes.thats all--

2008-09-18T16:24:00.000+08:00

there is something wrong with blogger. i cant post long posts

2008-09-15T21:46:00.002+08:00

*omitted*

i have been reading sarahs blog to see what she posted today cos i was so sure that she posted.i am gonna use *omitted* also like sarah. anyway, when ms seah told us the news about *omitted*, i went like whoops! no offence though, not saying that u cant be sad but just that i have never ever ever talked to *omitted* before. well, everyone was like so quiet. i have a few opinions but i think it would be unsensitive to voice my views online, where a million people can see it and yeah. so, it did not really affect me. sorry. i took the coloured paper and drew 2 smiley faces. i wrote my name too. i did not at all pretend and make myself feel sad and depressed because i hate pretending and i really hate people who pretend. i mean, if u don feel sad, then dont.

for all those ATS people that don understand this post, so so sorry. i cant explain it cos its on my BLOG.

yes. next. after reading sarah's blog, it triggered me that the lump growing on my thigh has been frantically increasing in size and it might be cancerous but, heck, who cares. may i just get cancer and who knows what.

and one more thing. im buying the photoshop. for 97. yes. so cheap right??
dont ask why.

and today the volleyball teams were out. im with jing jie!! :( and jocelyn (jing jie & joclyn!!)
and kimberly and christine and crystal. i found out that for the term 4 seating arrangement, im sitting with jing jie too, not to mention the rugby team also had me and jj in the same group. reality check:sitting with jj for 1 year in science, med.ed and lit
siting with jj for half a year in class arrangement. same season sport group as jj forever.

sheesh. i think im stuck with him for life.

GAH!

2008-09-14T16:57:00.001+08:00

im so...

i read sarahs blog. all the old posts. yesterday i was talking to yuri on the phone till like 12plus am. twas cool. i am now on the net basically because im asking pontianak for help with idu. due this friday. i cant believe mr jae helps r6 with idu. ms seah dosent. roar. and yesterday i had a dream. i dreamt that me and sarah were flying high up in the clouds. she was bonnie. as in bonnie and clyde. bonnie. lol. and we were dressed in those kinds of wierd chinese costunmes. those that they wear in the olden days. fun! and u cld never imagine how preeety sarah was. IN MY DREAMS only.

she says that lousy blog posts annoy her. she says mine arent so hahahahahahahahahaha. im PROFESSIONAL. hahahahahahah.hahahaha. im gonna continue ha-ing. so. i have finished new moon and now onto eclipse. good luck.
hahahahahaha
hahahaha
hahahaha

hahaha

hahahaha.

sarahsaffy.

hbHhHhHha

IM GONNA FREAK OUT NOW SO BYE.

im loving this song now

梁山伯與茱麗葉

and im loving this girl now

and im loving this advertisement now

recently i realised that pepsi has a couple of great commercials. take a look.

in the next commercial, they used britney, beyonce and pink

used F4, Aaron Kwok, Sammi Cheng, Jay Chou, Jolin Tsai, and Edison Chen. ...

yea. so i realised that pepsi uses stars to do ads unlike coke. therefore i support coke as they are more sincere. what the hell...

hmmm.

2008-09-13T19:07:00.003+08:00

today.

i feel like im dying. this term is the term where all the major tests and art exams happen. i cant seem to focus. i cant do my homework properly, i cant fill up my sketchbook, i cant come up with pottery ideas, i cant paint well, i cant i cant and i cant.

i miss sarah ALOT.
dont know why.
sorry. i dont feel like blogging.
maybe i shall go cut.
goodbye...
...
...

long post

2008-09-10T14:28:00.004+08:00

the long, long post.

this post is gonna be super long cos i havent blogged for like 3 days.

MONDAY... ...
school has started and its really bad. on monday, i made a mental note to have medium amounts of hair until im outa school, the reason being that Nicholas got caught for too much hair and justin getting caught for too little hair. im really worried cos im starting to find science boring, and when i find something boring, i start to lose interest and then start failing. no i dont want that.

TUESDAY... ...
today romit kept following me sarah f and fayth around after school, the reason being that he likes pontianak ans he wants my kit kat. rawrmit. boo. on the bus, i asked pontianak who was the most unworthy-of-r6-person-that-was-in-r6. she said it was her. because shes failing everything, apart from english subs like idu, lit and arc. lol. but shes pretty la, u see... so i was expecting like a boy... a certain boy.. but... nevermind.

WEDNESDAY... ...
by right i should be in school now, having lit or something, but for some reason, its study day today and no school. im busy reading twilight. im really worried for IDU as the deadline is coming and i dont noe wad to do. guess i must go ask pontianak for help, since her english is like freaking good la. and this was the conversation that i had with kimberly over the phone just now.
we were imitating denise.
ME(some teacher):who's been to hell??
KIMBERLY(denise):oh! me! me!
ME: oo. how and why did u go there.
K:oh. simple. my mom got tickets.

haha! lol. funny rite??
and then...

ME: denise, name a place that u have been to this holiday.
Kimberly(denise): the moon.
ME:why??
K: oh. my dad works in a spaceshi and my family gets free trips there. we go there when we are bored and sorta like fly around the place.

lol.

umm i sorta need to go . so , bye!

P.S. paranoiaaa isnt mrs sim. its viraj.
PSS im so embarassed.
PSSS lemme upload a funny video

.

ok. another crappy miss swan vid.
hope u have a good laaf!
bah bye.

ooo! and this too!

2008-09-07T19:17:00.001+08:00

p.s. gaia online rocks

last day

2008-09-07T18:43:00.002+08:00

LAST DAY OF HOLIDAY.

i decided to flush everything to the right (not bcoz of beyonce). today is the last day of holiday, and though i have not completed idu, studied science, memorise chinese, i did not study at all(ahem). to enjoy. yes and today i was really angry. i ate some assholly lousy food at church. then i was like sooo effing angry, so i went home and my CHINESE tution teacher arrived. she was supposed to gimme a 1.5 hr tution, but it became 3hours. 3HOURS OF EFFING NON STOP CHINESE. GAH@@@@@@@@@@@@@ effing angry. **minors please stop reading as i am gonna swear.**
FUCK. eff eff eff. u noe why im so skeptical about vulgarities? cos im scared(yes, i DO get scared) that m rs sim, m iss (rona)tan, m rs chew or some bum that will cause me to be punished is reading my blog. gah.

right. sorry. and its really scary, paranoiaaaa, who are u??? are u mrs sim?? cos im scared that u are. cos kimberly had some bad experiences with mrs sim through her blog. and i think mrs sim really found this blog. so, from now on, s o t a will become s*o*t*a*. so that if ANYONE types s*ota in google, they cant find me.

discovery

2008-09-05T13:16:00.003+08:00

good singers, good voice.

i came across this great singer on youtube. this is im yours by jason mraz. (sang by him)

and this is stop and stare by one republic.

this is apologize by one republic

ya. and so on so forth. i love him <333333 he can sing really well, and i happen to like acoustic songs. like just a voice and a guitar, so that i can hear the voice clearly. it rocks!!@

and thanks to kimberly, i discovered a series of how to videos. like how to be a ners, how to be a gangster, how to be a ninja, how to be emo and stuff. for others, u just type how to in the search bar.

ooo. and this is super funny.

hahaha. now im gonna watch more stuff. bah bye!

titless

2008-09-04T12:28:00.002+08:00

rushing

i dont know why. but since i was 11, i dint really want to go out during holidays, not even to restaurants or a movie or whatever. on even a holiday. i feel so reluctant. i dont know whats happened to me... wierd. does it happen to you too? well, i wanna go see a counsellor. someone better than *ahem*mrt*cough cough* yes. whatever. maybe im too attached to the computer, my darling radio station and my phone. maybe when i get a notebook next time i MIGHT just go on a holiday. my mom told me yesterday that i MUST go for the trip to anhui cos if i was not there, they would not know what to do. THEYRE using me@@@@@@@@@@@@ @@@@@@@@@@@@@@@ freaking retarded.

i plan to finish IDU today. and im currently uploading the photos to picasa so just gimme a moment, ya?

ok
so it took me a long time, tomorrow i shall upload the photos of my cousins wedding. i shall now facebook and play neopets. ahem.

anyway, this is the URL to the photos. CLICK HERE

okay. happy looking(??) i gotta go.

right

2008-09-03T12:15:00.004+08:00

TIME

so i've thought over it. since i cant get the title to show, i'll write it on the post itself. the fonts is wierd. yes anyway, hope you'll like my blogskin. this is my third one already@@ i added a counter and a clock. im learning more and more about html nowadays, thanks to black bozo. i gotta go do my work now la.

~ihss:finish everything on hinduism

~MAths:finish practice 10c and 9c

~science"finish all the blank stuff and study. seriously.

~no lit hw

~IDU. dont ask me. 400 to 600 words. due on 19 sep

~med ed poster. due on 3rd week of T4. adobe website offers a 30 day free trial photoshop.

~chinese. memorise all the words.

~rush out some poems and prose for portfolio due on i dono when.

~find time to play

yes. thats all. lots of homework, yes?

maybe not. i need to go and eat as well as do some homework. i'll upload the photos when i have time. seriously. goodbye~

countdown

2008-09-03T12:00:00.001+08:00

Myspace Countdowns at WishAFriend.com

blog skin

2008-09-03T11:10:00.000+08:00

im gonna change my blogskin now.

to sarah frances...

2008-09-02T13:34:00.003+08:00

TO SARAH.

i've read sarah frances' blog. theres something special about her blog. i just dont know why. anyway.. sarah, i just wanna let u know that dreams DO come true. just dont dream to big. your dream to become an actress might just come true, since u are doing theatre right now. and, start fulfilling ur dreams by dreaming small. like me! last night, i dreamt of having kit kat for breakfast and it was fulfilled. at other times, i dream that i can take te bus home with viraj & sarah frances (and that you guys will not be tired on the bus so that we can do some 'storytelling'). sometimes, it comes true. sometimes, it doesn't. sometimes, i dream that i would not meet MRT. it has been fulfilled. at least, until now. so you see, dreams do come true. besides, you could join some crappy singing competiton next time and you might just win whith your good looks, good voice and exellent acting skills(??)

yes. so, keep dreaming. start small.

today in history.

2008-09-02T12:25:00.002+08:00

click HERE to see what happened on 2 september. yes. totally random.

im now trying to rush out my creative writing portfolio. i need to pass it up on monday. i must 'keep up the good work', according t ms seah... i was wondering. do we do things to impress people or because we like doing it. for me, i think that 30% of the things i do is for others, while 70% is about me. carallie is... ... i pity her. right. i feel really flustered when i see a;; the papers lying around in my room, waiting to be filed up. im really scared of those papers.

Let me tell you how i feel about the anhui trip (mission trip to china in november) click HERE to find out about its tourists attractions and HERE about the bad things there. and i still dono what i have to go there 4. i have a feeling that they are just using me, just because im from an art school. they even said... we need you. we would be lost without you. that was hurting, as if i was a free labour worker. im supposed to go there to help the sunday school kids decorate the place. the church peeps have a proposal that i think will not really work and will look really cheap. they are thinking of pasting paper cut-outs on the walls. i mean like wth. so i gave an idea to like sorta paint the tables and benches with paint. then they said good idea... we can use poster paint to do it. WTF. poster paint. it will come off in like...2 hours>> i said use arcrylic paint then they say too expensive... ... i really dono what they want. then now, my mom is asking me to learn to draw sheep so that i can teache them how to do it. i mean like, why would i need to LEARN how to draw sheeep. does she really think lowly of me?

im really confusd now. someone please help me lah... ...

anyway, im really bored right now. so... im feeling neutral right now. right,

goodbye lorh.

contemplation

2008-09-01T23:50:00.003+08:00

i have been thinking. i have scanned my computer. there is virus and im gonna remove it. what if one day, my whole computer breaks down? its really scary. i swear. no idea why im bloging this late. no idea if anyone even reads this blog. it seems so quiet, so scary, as if i am isolated from the whole entire beautiful world that lies ahead of me. and, i would like to widen my social circle. not only to guys and girls, but also to transgender, lesbian and gay people. i would like to know how they feel. i think that they are cool and i have NOTHING against them. they're unique and just special. i guess everyone has their own personalities and we just have to learn to acept them as they are, yes?-quoted by christie, a post on romit.

yes. that was abit impromtu. i havent really talked about my malaysia trip. yes. when i went there, i was suppper pissed off. all the aunties started asking me what i study in the school, english? maths? and stuff. one was so disrespectful. he said "the people who are in the art industry(meaning us, sota ppl) will be jobless in future. who appreciates art?"

dear uncle. it is only u, the ignorant one that does not apptrciate art. just because u live in a small kampong in malaysia dosent mean that u have the power to criticise art. u only noe how to kill chickens and duck. bozo. i bet u never ever ever went to a concert, movie, art gallery or dance performance before.

lets continue. so. the virus scan just said that i had to reboot computer to disinfect the computer. gonna do that later. so. christine has this secret stalker named bee ying. she studies in bedok green sec and is taking her technical o levels this year. calls her everyday. so i snort and make funny noises and sing etc. when she calls. that is, if im with christine at the point of time in which she calls.) sometimes i feel.. why is there all these friendship shit going around... like.. this person is blah blah.. don be her friend... sometimes i really feel tired of all these.

right. so im having this conversation on msn with a really cute malaysian girl. so here goes.
PS im 'yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:'

yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
aloo
carrieLie says:
harlowwwwwwwwwwwwww
carrieLie says:
me v bored
carrieLie says:
wuwuww
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
orh
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
can sms me lo..
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:

yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
i os veri bored
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
and i call the company say no matter wad sms i send all 5 cent
carrieLie says:
wooo
carrieLie says:
i sms u at midnite?
carrieLie says:
hahaha
carrieLie says:
wad time u sleep?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
umm
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
i dono..
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
but now holiday, so mebbe 1?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
normal day is abt 10 to 11
carrieLie says:
woo
carrieLie says:
so early
carrieLie says:
i always sleep at 5am then wake up at 7.30 for skul
carrieLie says:
hmmm
carrieLie says:
pimple pop out and dark circle ring
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
wad....
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
but why 5am
carrieLie says:
i dunoo
carrieLie says:
insomnia
carrieLie says:
love matter
carrieLie says:
i got hurt
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
hurt?
carrieLie says:
yes
carrieLie says:
heart breoken
carrieLie says:
broken*
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
y?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
boyfren dump u?
carrieLie says:
wait ar
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
k
carrieLie says:
name him A ok?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
ok.
carrieLie says:
A has a gf alr, i name his gf B, and me C
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
can i put this on my blog?
carrieLie says:
put wad?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
this convo
carrieLie says:
why?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
for fun.
carrieLie says:
hmmm
carrieLie says:
=/
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
then

You have just sent a nudge.

carrieLie says:
err
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
hurry
carrieLie says:
a make me fall for him
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
i oni can online 5 mins
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
ya
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
so
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
u like him. then?
carrieLie says:
i loved him
carrieLie says:
he used to tell me tat he luvs me alot
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
yes
carrieLie says:
but now he remain his gf
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
o
carrieLie says:
i was a fool
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
so he cheat u>
carrieLie says:
im his toy
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
ur parents noe?
carrieLie says:
can say tat. toy wif my feelings
carrieLie says:
parents duno
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
o
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
ok
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
u poor thing. when did that happen?
carrieLie says:
not long ago
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
ok then

You have just sent a nudge.

carrieLie says:
yes?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
what next
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
did u slap him?
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
shyt
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
g2g
yay i bought twilight, breaking dawn, eclipse and new moon says:
sms ya

thats is. goodbye

and i think im really professional tonite.

im back

2008-09-01T15:57:00.002+08:00

hi people. i bought lots of chocolates to put into the locker. kimberly will be so jealous *muahahahaha* btw, i love my books. im deparately trying to get my shoes back. i think the officers are just skiving. they dont do their work. im gonna upload the photos another day, cos i haf lots of hw to do. and, im thinking of making a poetry blog. should i? and what URL should it be?? (please leave tag). oh, and i love you. just random. totally. for R5 peeps, u can click on the letter M in the CREAM to see the holiday homework. and, can any pro tell me how to do the IDU?

in malaysia.

2008-08-30T20:06:00.002+08:00

yes. im in malaysia now. which part of it? - batu pahat. (click HERE or HERE to find out more about it) im in my aunt's house and surprisingly there's internet. i wonder how many people are reading this. maybe one day i will be like xia xue. (singapore's no.1 blogger. click HERE to go to her blog) ok. maybe i should stop fantasizing. ways, i just had my haircut. hahahahahaha. tomorrow will be my cousins wedding and i shall put lots and lots of photos on blogger on monday or something like dat. geez. xia xue is really cool.

todayt i spent like 3.5 hours in the car. sian lo..... n den i ate lots of stuff 4 dinner and it was really cheap, like RM58, which is about S$25 ( for 7 ppl). 1 person 3 dollars. in school can buy like only 1 bowl of oyako/yakiniku/teriyaki chicken/whatever bowl and a nutri soy less sugar(??)... sorry i got carried away. anyway, thats all for today. oh, and... i love xia xue, though i think sometimes she seems um... proud and snobbish and bitchy. but i still love her@@

PS is anyone getting tired of the blogskin ( should i change it?) please leave ttag arrh... thanks

my darling books.

2008-08-29T21:35:00.002+08:00

yay im like so goddamn happy. i just bought the four stephenie meyers books:( you can click on them to get the book summaries that i got from wiki).

ok so that cost about $77.20. but MPH had a sale. for every $30 you spent, you can get 1 out of 5 (choose) different selected books at $1 each. So i got 'THEFT-a love story' by peter carey ($1) and also 'OUR LADY OF THE FOREST ' by david gutterson ($1).

so all these should be $78.20. but thank god, MPH had yet ANOTHER sale. 20% off all my books. so the final bill was about $62. THEN I WAS LIKE WOW@ 6 books for 62??? wth.

anyway, i g2g now. i'll be going to malaysia tomorrow. and come back on sunday nite. oh, and my irritating little cousin is taking the car too. what should i doooo?

many things to say.

2008-08-29T13:52:00.004+08:00

firstly, today is teachers day. we had a gr8 time and amni was singing and elias was on the key board. ( theres a vid)

then they decided to have an encore. and it was this.

so i went back to ai tong all by myself. i thought no one was gonna remember me but they were pretty friendly to me, especially joey(??? what happened). i forgot to bring presents for teachers so... yea.remember my shoes? i call sbs like crazy but they say all the lines engage. what crap lah@@ ahem. and tomoro im going to malaysia for my cousins wedding and welcoime the holidays. i dont really feel like going anywhere...sheesh. i just found a free movie downloads website. xunlei.com. umm im really pissed off now cos its all in chinese and i cant reach sbs. so cheerios @ @ @ @ @

whoooops

2008-08-28T19:06:00.002+08:00

am i being soo mean to denise that god has decided to punish me????
cos i just realised i left my shoebag with my shoes on the bus 14. now im ging to go to sbstransit website and try to geddit back. hang on...

gees... i found the lost and found thingy but i cant submit it. something wrong.

i just called up and they told me to call during working hours@@@@@@@@@@ i mean like wtf@@@@@

i dun really care anymore. only a pair of shoes only mah gahhhhhhhhhhh@@@@@@@@@@@@@

rugby

2008-08-28T13:32:00.002+08:00

yesterday there was a rugby tournament. it was really bad. i mean, although my team got into the semi finals, lots if people cried and friends fell out. im really booooooed now. yesterday, this happened.(after we lost a game)~~~
CHRISTINE:... ... ...(keep quiet
DENISE:you should not blame joan for making us lose. its the teams fault.
*christine did not say anything
ALETHEA:joan's a effing bitch
DENISE: i agree. she pushed me away just now so i could not stop xxx from scoring a touchdown.
AWHILE LATER~~
I WAS EMOING COS OF IT(NOT BECAUSE WE LOST, BUT BECAUSE THEY WERE BLAMING ME)
DENISE:joan... why are you so sad... you can tell me what happened... maybe i can help you.

waleow.umm i hate this kind of two faced people. denise, if u are reading this, please... just get out of my life.
the bell just rung. i've gotta go

realise.

2008-08-26T20:34:00.002+08:00

today we had the ihss presentation thingy. we were questioned till we were tongue tied. it was olivias fault. but jing jie started blaming me for no reason. ass. im really angry. any way, lit was REALLY booooring today. but i produced a really nice art piece. someday, im gonna take pics of ALL my art work and put it on some public photo album...

ooooooooooo! my dad just gave me my prepaid handphone card- $35@@@@@@@@ muahahahahahahaha.

right. im done frolicking in happiness. anyway, something is going on with denise and ko and crystal n christine n vera...... weird. ummm i think during the semtember holiday i will upload the pics of the ihss thingy. i need to to make a couple of teachers day card. by the way, ats ppl, are u guys going back on friday?

today in the morning, romit came with a BIG bag of envolopes with names on it. he gave it to sarah frances. it contained a letter that said something like... u're special of something. oh, and also 50 cents. tara recieved 1 too. some others did too. clarissa told romit to stop bribing people. i notice that romit, though irritating and weird, has become uhhhh.... popular. yes. popular.

i'll leave you to contemplate about it.

P.S. sarah frances can be bitchy(if she wants to). shes cute as in super cute when she scrunches up her face. it looks like its a piece of paper and someone is crumpling it. i cant understand why romit likes her. shes too good for romit. i think she'd rather marry a girl than romit, though no offence, romit... am i being mean??? this P.S. note is getting too long so bah-bye.

thanks christie & ms jessie & some other people

2008-08-25T20:17:00.004+08:00

today, i was rushing out the ihss project. ms jessie even had to smash a tile for me. i was so busy, i dint realise that i had an overdue book on ancient phoenicia. luckily, the very-kind-ultra-nice-super-pretty-best-personality-god-loves-her christie helped me return it on her way home. i owe the library 1.60

i went to popular and wanted to buy twilight. BUT it was sold out @@@@@@@@@@@@@ im currently looking for a cheap twilight. anyone who knows where please please leave a tag and lemme noe. and i have a 15% discount @ popular. so i need it reallllly cheap cos im almost broke.

and i sorta really need to go now.

ps today i took 166 home with shabnam and i think i should thank her for helping me make my ihss aretefact.

PSS for those ats ppl who are reading, ihss is integrated humanities social sciences. basically its social studies, geog, history dumped in2 1 subject.

PSSS we're(year 1 art students) gonna paint the walls of the school. me and ko's group (shoelaces) are gonna paint emo stuff outside room for you(the counselling room)

CREDITS 2 PPL WHO MADE MY DAY

ms jessie............for helping me SMASHIT!
christie...............for helping me return my book
shabnam+bettina+those peeps in my group without jing jie.............for helping me glue stuff together

yay

2008-08-24T19:39:00.001+08:00

i've finally found the perfect blogskin. muahahaha. please continue to spread the goodness of mah blog to people around you.

project

2008-08-24T18:29:00.007+08:00

i cant seem to figure out why all my posts are italics. anyway, it was raining heavily and i saw 2 roaches making love. sounds amazing right ??? just take a look. their butts were stuck together. and when my mom used newspaper t whack them, they didnot budge. their butts were doggedly stuck together the way two opposite sides of a magnet stick to each other. how sweet. but come to think of it, they're roaches.so... yea.

.yes. and today during church i was smsing sarah f and after awhile, she sent me an sms that made me laaf out loud during the sermon.
SARAH:i'll have to stop smsing you now, cos the pastor looks as if he wants to murder me with the bible.

i went to bishan library after that and met up with jing jie and andrew for the IHSS project.. mun sum wasnt there. we had a really great time crapping about and stuff. yea. i went to popular in search of twilight but it wasnt there. it was outta stock

the pastor told me that i had to go to a mission trip in china, anhui village to help the little children in the sunday school paint the walls/tables/chairs and just decorate it, and i can say im not really sure about this. i mean, its a VILLAGE. will there be signal, internet connection, warm bath water, proper hotels and nice comfy blankets? will it be clean or what... joan... stop wondering.

right. so now, i have to go rush the script for IHSS. oh, and munsum... if u're reading this, PLEASE MEMORISE ALL THE STUFF, U BOZO... IF NOT, WE WILL FAIL AND U WILL DIE. THERE WILL BE 3 PEOPLE KILLING U. NO, ITS 11. PLUS OUR PARENTS AND YOURS TOO. BEWARE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!@@#$%^&*()@#$%^&*)((**

ps. i feel like changing my blogskin.

interesting stuff

2008-08-23T18:28:00.003+08:00

today, my dad was driving me to some crappy tuition. it was raining heavily. then, his car accidentally just touched the back of the car in front of us. that old man got us to follow his car and we stopped somewhere. he made my dad pay $200. well, all i can say is that god is gracious. why? well, thats because he was an ass. that guy had silver streaks of hair. he was wearing some yucky khaki tee shirt with brown blotches all over it. he tucked in his shirt and pulled it reight up to the top.

and remember what i said about the photos of art fest,click HERE to see them.

2008-08-22T22:08:00.002+08:00

mmm. 3 posts in a day...
aNYWAY, THE CHEAP MOVIE WAS OK. KIMBERLY KEPT CRACKING UP AND LAUGHING BECAUSE SHE SAID WE'RE GONNA WATCH THE CHEAP MOOVIE...
OKAYYYYY...ooops its all in caps.
yes and theres gonna be the year 1 rugby tournament on this wed. ur group identity is tie a ponytail with a pink ribbon...how the hell am i gonna do that (my hair cant be tied)... anyway, i have been linking people. so, if ur name isnt dere, just leave a tag :D
i'll upload some pics of the sota art fest 2moro maybe??? and really, thanks kimberly lots for helping me with the tagboard. now im gonna stress over how im gonna tie my oh-so-short hair into a ponytail. maybe a beansprout... whatever, joan...bye ~~~~

kimberly part 2

2008-08-22T13:15:00.002+08:00

right. so the bozo is making me change the post. she wants me to say : kimberly is a smart and nice person. she is not retarded and is not bozoey.

kimberly

2008-08-22T13:11:00.002+08:00

kimberly was freaking out today cos i keep calling her retard (which she IS), shes so stupid that she dosent even know that. anyway, im like suppper hungry now and i need to eat. if not, my brain will turn into cotton and my tummy will turn into jhonsons baby powder.
and im going to watch the $1 red cliff movie with the whole school l8r at 3.15. bb

today

2008-08-21T05:40:00.001+08:00

so today in the morning i heard that almost half of r6 failed the chinese compo test. i was so effing worried. so i got my test back and guess what... ...
i got 17\20!!!! i could have gotten 19\20 but cos of the effing wrong words. i wanna go to watch movies on 29 and 30 of august. theres stardust, meet the robinsons, hairspray, rattatouie(??), transformers, xmen 3 and stuff. each movie ticket is like only 2bucks.
oh, and.. tommorow, im going to the red cliff movie. me and the whole school. i paid only like 1dollar. yes. 1 dollar. and tara passed her chinese test. im gonna upload a vid of her cracking up happily.

yes. thats her. oh. 1 more thing. i got 75\100 for maths!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so... im happy :D cos this semester i havent been really studying hard. i have just been copying answers from the whiteboard. viraj says that its called subconcious learning. whatever, viraj. and, i dint expect to pass. :D im really scared that ill fail ihss cos i already failed once. . . . . . mrs yeo, if u are reading this, please please let me pass this time round !!

i was with moira today during lunch. she was singing. and she asked me if i was entertained watching her sing and play the piano. i was (her singing was horibble :D jkjk) emm. i g2g now...
Kimberly is gonna help me with my imeem music and the tagboard tomorrow.so ciao!!

yay

2008-08-20T18:44:00.000+08:00

k so... this is my very first blog. right.
firstly, i would like to clarify the meaning of this blog url.
black is my favourite colour.
bozo is my favourite word.
right. oh, an there was this freaking retarded ARC test today. it was essay writing. roopa is taking my car to school from today onwards. i really envy kimberly, coz shes in the photography club!!! ( and im not--) emm peeps, i'll have a textbox later this month, so just be patient and wait. right. um im hungry now, so bye~